STOCKHOLM SYNDROME

Comic Live

2011-03-28T21:35:00.017+02:00

AS I SAID IN MY PREVIOUS POST, SATURDAY WOULD BE THE DAY I MET AWESOME PEOPLE.
AND I DID.
Elk and me spend most of the day with Saspy, Sy-noir, Sori, Delacroix and Yayoi (aka Miso), and I met Senri, Plumy, Goku and Radditz again. And I talked with Alatherna. AHAH. I said that I didn't like RusAm because I'm a jealous girl who ships RUSLAT AND ONLY PAIRS RUSSIA WITH LATVIA OKAYTHX. Ahem.
Also, it was a big surprise when I met Mako, an old online friend!

Ahh but seriously guys you were so amazing, kind, nice, funny and other stuff!!one1!♥
I miss you already. T-T
Delacroix/peekaboo/damnhowshouldicallyou?/WHATEVER is maybe the craziest person I've met since a long time. XD *poke breast 8D*
Saspy, Sy-noir and Sori were so nice and cute, but I was too shy to talk to them. *sob in a corner* I hope we'll be able to meet again, so I'd be more talkative /maybe/. I just wished my English wasn't that bad. In fact my English is far better b-but idk why I lost my words with people I don't know asghkl *failsatlifeokay*.
AND I MET YAYOI. MY DREAM BECAME TRUE OMG. I can die with happiness and rainbow tears now. But here again I was too shy to speak much, but I got 2 hugs and super-awesome headphones from her. *diesdiesdies* TvT ♥

OMG I really sounds like a freakin' fangirl.

So.

Stop the blah and here comes the SOUVENIRS~

Yayoi and me >v<

Elk and Simy

Simy and me

The awesome girlssss (Saspy and Sy-noire are missing D:)

Senriiiii

Sy-noire and Peekaboo (and on the left the nice Japanese woman who healed Sori's little injuries >v<)

Yayoi!

ELK~

Biôtch.

Elk, Tutti and me before departure

On the train. Elk re-reading the Goku's porn book. 8D

Boys are all eyes when a girl eats a banana.

2011-03-24T16:48:00.006+01:00

Omg I love so much banana with Nutella. (°7°)

When I see the time gap between my last entry and the one before, I really have the impression that I died for a while lol.
The truth is, Jade and me had problems (we still have though) so life isn't easy everyday, especially for my girlfriend. Fortunately, she just has been accepted as a trainee in an agency during 2 months BUT she'll not be paid. At last she had found a work placement so she won't be suspended of her school, that's the good point, but money issues will remain a problem. And I don't have time enough (because of college) to take commissions anymore -I still have tone to do. orz
I hope things will get better, and our mood above all.

Besides, I'm still taking my driving lessons but only 1 or 2 times a week, which is not enough...I cried in the car last time, because I forgot nearly everything. My teacher was like "eh don't cry, d-don't cry! It's only your 4th hour, it's okay not to remember everything!" I felt like an idiot but tears won't stop. I wish I could have my driving licence after 35 hours of lessons, not more. Because I don't have enough money anyway.
I'm planning on working at McDonald's as a summer part-time job, I hope it'll be possible. *wants money ;;*

On good news, this Saturday Jade and me will be at Comic Live in Paris! We are going as visitors and I can't wait to see Senri, Simy, Plumy, Marta and Goku again! Also, I'll meet MISO♥, Saspy and Kuropu. They seem so funny and gentle asdfjkl. *will be so shy that she will stammer while speaking her frenchy English (what a shame knowing I'm doing an English degree)*
I CAN'T WAIIIIT. I just pray the weather forecast says wrong and that it'll not rain on Saturday. :<

Tomorrow is Saturday

2011-03-18T23:16:00.001+01:00

Hello thar no I'm not dead because it's FRIDAY FRIDAYYY!

The D Day

2011-01-21T11:10:00.003+01:00

So today I'm moving in a little apartment in Nancy with Jade, for 5 months or more ! ♥
I hope we'll have the internet... orz

Photo taken during New Year.

"Does jerking off means throwing up?"

2011-01-17T20:43:00.006+01:00

Today I had my first driving lesson. \o/
I was nervous and I did some mistakes but I think I'm liking the idea of driving more and more! I want to learn faster, to have my own car and to be free! ♥

Also, tomorrow morning I'll try to buy fourniture for the apartment (a table, a sofa and other things) and I have to ask Nasser if he could drive me to the apartment. Also, maybe asking my big brother to help me with the sofa (Jade and me will be living on the 5th floor ah ah...). I can't wait to be settled~

I can't wait to have a kind of "new" life. With my lover living with me, and maybe a car in few months. (;w;) Also, I'll try to give English courses for high school students or to help them for their English homeworks in order to earn money.

SLAM this bitch!

2011-01-12T17:24:00.002+01:00

This guy got it so right. He is now one of my 1341985 Gods. : D

I particularly like the "I want to feel sorry for you, but If you're already feeling sorry for yourself why do I have to?" So true!

Guys my exams are oveeerrrrr! \o/

Keep calm and have an exam.

2011-01-07T21:22:00.004+01:00

Today was a good day and an AWESOME one. Why? BECAUSE MY MOST FAVORITE DOUJINKA SENT ME A MESSAGE ON PIXIV AND INVITED ME TO FOLLOW HER ON TWITTER. Just that. *breathes*
She's Misoさん, the one who draw the FrancexLatviaxSealand doujin "Bon appétit !" and the LatviaxSealand "The tower that ate people"(and others doujin I absolutely want to buy).
When I got her message I was... shaking and trembling like Latvia. I don't even joke, I was really crying of joy!
It's like a dream. I thought she was untouchable. Like, you know, a god.
She'll be attending the Comic Live in Paris on March and wanted to meet each other ! *squee* I wasn't planning to go because the train is expensive, b-but I just can't miss this opportunity. I've already bought the train tickets, but I still need to buy my gf's (because of the appartment we'll have to pay, I prefer offering her the tickets...).
Moreover, I'll be able to see Senri, Simy, Sassou and maybe Nighty! Even though we'll only stay one day, I'm sure it'll be an amazing and unforgettable one!
I'm planning to go with my Latvia cosplay, I want to show it to Misoさん ♥

FFFF- and you know what? My love was planning on buying me Misoさん's doujinshi as my Christmas gift (with the help of mepty) but it's difficult to get them through Japan, so it takes long! XD
I was so surprised and HAPPY to know that. She's the best. (;o;)♥♥

Okay I'm even more motivated to draw tones of fanarts of Raivis! But before, I have to wait the end of my exams. OTL

"Salut j'habite où"

2011-01-06T19:08:00.009+01:00

HELLLOOOO!

First of all : HAPPY NEW YEAR AND ALL THE BLAH. ♥
This entry is supposed to be long because I have lot of things to write about, be prepared. 8D

From 26th December to 29th I was at my lover's place for her birthday (on 28th) and to celebrate our first year together (my it's already been one year I'm with her, time goes fast). While going to Lausanne I had train issues because of lack of electricity on the railway line so I get stuck for 3 hours! Next to me was sitting a Korean tourist guide who didn't speak any French, so I translated her the problem in English. She was nice and fangirlised when I said that I loved Korean fashion and music. She asked me which bands I listen to and she was all "Ahh I'm so happy you're here, thank you thank you! I'm happy to be able to speak with you~ (Q7Q)"...I was so happy too. XD
After 3 hours we finally arrived to a train station but it was very far from Lausanne and the train won't go because the electricity problem wasn't fixed. So I waited 2 hours for Jade and her father to pick me up by car (sorry guys, I know it was very far from your house ;;). I must say that I nearly cried because I waited a long time and it was FREAKING COLD. The gare station didn't have a heating system and it was nearly -14°C outside. YEAH. Anyway, I jumped into my lover's arm when she arrived, she warmed me up ah ah! We stopped by a Buffalo Grill restaurant in Grenoble and we came back to Lausanne at midnight. No need to say that I was pissed off because I was supposed to arrive in Lausanne by train at 4:30pm... so because of the train issue I waisted an afternoon with my girl. 8(

Next day and the other, Jade went to work on the morning while I had all the morning to sleep and then to prepare myself to go meet her in Lausanne and spend the afternoon together~. On Monday we ate at the Chinese restaurant and we went to the cinema to watch RAIPONCE♥♥ I totally loved it! I want to watch it again! Must buy the DVD (omg since when do I buy DVDs?) We also did shopping and I bought 2 pairs of shorts, 1 pair of tights, a shirt and my love offered me beautiful white lingeries. On Tuesday we ate at the restaurant (Chinese again XD) in Montreux (a beautiful city) with Jade's oncle/aunt and grandma. That was the first time I met with her grandma, she wanted to see me...I was nervous. It's odd that now all her family knows about us, but they seem to accept our relationship. ♥ After the meal, we did shopping and we joined with a friend of Jade before going back to Lausanne; there we had to go with Yun, Prussia and Feli (sorry guys, I keep naming you with your rp pseudo XD;) to eat together to the Ethiopian restaurant to celebrate Jade's birthday! ♥ It was a simple but nice and funny night! (;w;)

When we came back home we watched the DVD How To Train Your Dragon (YES, I actually bought the DVD omg!). I never saw it but Jade always said it was an awesome movie so...AND SHE DIDN'T LIED OMG!!1one! I've already watched it 3 times! XD I squee like a pig each time I see Harold (Hipcup in English) and Krokmou (Touthless)! I want a dragon, please pretty please? *shot*

Next day I already had to go back to France... but I was happy because Jade was going to go to my house the next day to pass the new year with me! ♥ She stayed about 4 days. I was embarrassed because I had to work on my revisions and assignements during her stay so I think I didn't take care enough of her. I felt so sorry... b-but I think we had a lot of fun while cooking together! At least I really appreciated those moments. We did Russian food yay! XD
On another note, and a less happy one, I was really sad, disappointed and angry towards my mom. She acted all cold towards Jade, and rather, I'd say,"horrible". Yeah. I was like "go die in a corner you asshole". I wanted to kill her, I assure you. 8D But strangely enough she was far nicer the last two days. I was delighted, but still sad because I still don't know what she's thinking about our relationship. I don't dare asking because it's delicate and I'm kind of afraid of her response. But still, I was hoping that her encounter with Jade would been less mean. :/
For New Year, I dragged Jade to a party organized at 'Kael's house (he's one of the guys I go clubbing with) and there were also Kevin, Nasser and Dimitri. I was happy that she could meet my friends, especially Nasser who didn't stop asking her questions. XD I was hoping for something more...how to say... "exciting"? But the party was rather simple, and I'd say "quiet", that sometimes I felt a little bored...and I knew that Jade was too *sob* especially because she didn't like the music at all... but at least there was delicious aperitif food that the guys did themselves! And I played a little on Just Dance on wii (god I like this game it's funny when you play with friends or just watch them dancing awfully wrong 8D). We ended sleeping there but no more than 5 hours lololol. And we had dog's hairs everywhere on our clothes aaahhh! I hate this! DX
Well, I did have fun in general and I laughed a lot, it was good. I hope Jade liked the party nonetheless... at least a little. orz
When we came back home we prepared the food together (we were starving) and that's when my mom acted more gently. Maybe her good resolution for 2011? LOLOL. Anyway we were like real zombies so we spent the day watching films and rp LietLat. 8D♥
The next day was the last... we ate in Nancy at McDonalds and we drew some "cadavres exquis". I should scan them and post them because it's horribly hilarous! XDD Unfortunately Jade had train issues to go back to Switzerland...because of the French train strike. YES A GAIN .(=___=) I can't take their strikes anymore, damn it! I was so worried, but she came back home rather at time.
She's going back to France this Sunday with her father because she's going to take an apartment in Nancy...
AND IN TWO WEEKS WE WILL BE LIVING TOGETHER. ♥ She had found a work placement in Nancy for 6 months~ I'd lie if I say that I'm not nervous and afraid, but it's a step forward to take in our relationship. We'll see how things turn out~ (>w<)

Well...that's all! I wanted to write about my revived obsession with Latvia but I'm really tired of writing right now. So, next time!

”Are we talking about Christmas or sex ?”

2010-12-25T20:50:00.006+01:00

FINALLY I DREW SOME PORN! I missed my horny mood kufufu.
I know there are anatomy fails, like, a lot! But I'm kinda proud of my little Latvia here.♥♥

Tomorrow I'll be off for 3 days to Switzerland to see my beloved Jade; we will celebrate her 20th birthday AND our 1st year together. (^w^)

Oh, and I'm a little late but MERRY CHRISTMAS! Hope you got nice gifts and had an enjoyable time with your friends/family. :3

Also, did you notice that I've given to my blog a refresh? Pink was getting over my nerves!

I hate it when you think your dream is real & when you wake up, you're all disappointed...

2010-12-20T20:50:00.011+01:00

Yesterday night I did a PRUSLAT dream. No need to say that I was over-excited when I woke up, but a little disappointed beacause, you know, I WOKE UP. Why cruel world, why? Please don't wake me up, don't. Ever.
I dreamt of Pruslat because I read a pruslat fanfiction before going to bed, and of course, because of the juicy parts fufufufufu. Is it really necessary to precise that it wasn't an innocent dream? |D

I'd like to tell my dream in the more acurate way possible b-but I'm afraid I might change unconsciously the details. (>_<) I'll try to write all I remember, I don't want to lose the feeling I had when I was dreaming, and then when I wope up. But I know it's already fading away. (T_T) I was walking on a deserted street, I think I was going back home after uni classes. I remember that I was wearing blue jeans and a large black sweat, my hair wasn't smoothed down, it was all fluffy like Latvia. (well in fact I was like that ) The strange thing is that I actually was Latvia in addition to being me. Not really like a double personnality but still, very strange. Anyway. I was -supposedly- heading home when I saw Prussia walking in front of me (here again, he was Prussia but also "someone else", like, a student). I don't really know why but I wanted to follow him and I wanted to be seen. I walked faster to overtake him, but I was veeery nervous. I still can see how I was reacting, and how I was feeling. Ah, it's very strange but it's a good sensation!
Then, Prussia called out my name! Well, not really my name, but something like "Oi, you! You, little one...Latvia!" MY. HEART. STOPPED. I turned back to face him, he was suddenly wearing his pirate uniform and...the strange thing is that I knew he was Prussia from the APH forum I rp. He was the girl who played Prussia, but like me, it was as if two worlds were in contact. I don't know if I was me or Latvia, nor I knew if she was her or Prussia...get it? Dreams are really odd and hard to explain. ANYWAY!
I don't really remember what we were talking about, or rather what he said to me (because I was too shy/embarrassed to speak) but he said something like "you were following me weren't you? And now you're trying to avoid me! How naughty..." AND THEN HE KISSED ME OMG. Like, French kiss. Like, even if you are sleeping/dreaming you can feel the sensation of the tongue on your lips, then the tongue dancing with yours...OH GOSH I'M HYPER WHILE WRITING THIS. WHY IS IT GETTING SO HOT IN MY BEDROOM? *takes off her scarf*
Erm. Well. Latvia was very...confused but not for long because it was so good., he didn't want the kiss to be broken (it's really weird to speak about me in the 3rd person...well, I was Latvia anyway). I was feeling a little guilty because, well...it was Prussia AND also the girl who rp him. That girl has a girlfriend, so I was always asking to myslef "why the heck did she do it to me?" I just couldn't separate Prussia from her, as I couldn't do it for myself with Latvia. ANYWAY I DON'T HAVE ANY FANTAISIES ABOUT HER OKAY? I DON'T CARE I DON'T CARE I DON'T CARE! I JUST CARE ABOUT MY LOVE! ;_;♥
What happened next, I really don't remember. I'm pretty sure we did some H stuff but really I can't assert it, it's a feeling I have. However, I remember I was in a sort of pub, drinking with Prussia while he was taking the Mickey out of me. The way my Latvian face frowned and pouted, I just can't forget ahah~.
THEN I DON'T REMEMBER ANYTHING. I'm still doubtful but I think there were Russia (don't ask me who was my Russia ;D ) at the end, asking where I was and with who. When I said I was with Prussia (and I was afraid to say it) he got mad. Mnnnh but maybe it's my imagination because I'm not 100% sure I didn't made up this after slightly waking up in order to continue my dream. :/

WELL THAT'S IT, MY AWESOME DREAM EVEN THOUGH I KNOW YOU CAN'T IMAGINE HOW WONDERFUL I FELT ABOUT IT. Period.
If only this mood had stayed this high all along my day. 'OTZ

Mmh. I'd like to do some PrusLat fanarts but I'm not sure I'll be able to do them. I mean, I'm so frustrated when my sketches don't come out well...but I miss drawing Latvia, and I miss drawing him in a pairing. I just wish I had time to draw what I want, because I have so much work to do it's rather impossible to breath. Hyperventilating because of stress is not funny. (y)
I also feel a bit guilty because I still haven't written Ciel's letter...I'm sorry dear... I promise I'll do it right after the January exams, 'kay ? ( ;_;")

Finishing this entry with PROTOPLASM with English sub. The song, Satsuki's voice, the lyrics...ALL, I LOVE ALL ABOUT THIS SONG. Rentrer en Soi, why the hell did you split up before I could see you? (TT)

Destroy them!

HETAONI HETAONI HETAONIII

2010-12-08T00:15:00.004+01:00

GGAAAHHH Because of HetaOni I think I'm falling for Japan...a bit, but still! (;__;")

I wanted to draw a cool picture of him in a HetaOni version but I can't do anything about my shitty art lately. I want to improve but I'm feeling so empty and OH GOD 0% OF SELF-CONFIDENCE DOESN'T HELP A LOT.

I feel like I'm decreasing. And mhh... That something is changing inside of me. I don't know how to put it, but it's frightening me. orz I'm loosing something, someone; ah, idk.

I can't stop listening to/watching it!

Happy!

2010-11-24T22:32:00.004+01:00

Today I've received Ciel's letter! (*_*) I was waiting for it since about 2 weeks; I was eager each time I was checking my letter-box but it came this morning, finally! I was astonished by the number of stamps. XD
I read it on the train and it almost made me cry. Her way of telling things is so adorable.
I really want to reply to her soon, but with all the work I have to do for exams... it's hard time folks. BUT! I want to write a 8 (or more) pages letter too ahah! ♥
I've always loved snail mail though I'm rather lazy when it comes to write a letter because I never know what to tell without being boring. XD; I'll do my best!
I just wish letters weren't that slow to reach internationally. (;A;)

Dude! you're cute. Like, 'I-have-a-secret-crush-on-you' cute.

2010-10-28T19:44:00.010+02:00

HELLOOO.

I have my brain on /OFF mode so don't mind my shitty English pwease kthx. ( ￣ ◇￣) ノ

Yesterday I came back from my lover's place. I had a great but short vacation with her and I can't wait to put her up at home on November ♥ it'll be a great change to make her stay at my (well, my mom's) home, for once.

Anyway, I'm happy that I was able to spend some time with her. We ate at the restaurant like lovers would do, we went on shopping aaaand omg she cut her hair. She wanted it to be a surprise but since I arrived a day earlier... 8D; But she's, like, prettier and cutter than before. (Q//w//Q) I knew that short hair would fit her perfectly.
I also met with her uncle and aunt, they are funny ; we even helped them on their son's French grammar exercises wtf XD. I'm glad that Jade's sister wasn't TOO much persistant and possessive with me -but I still can't stand when she's around ARGH. On the contrary I love her parents, especially the father who's really funny and, well, he seems to like me and really understand my relationship with his daughter. (;w;)
The last day Jade and I worked on stuff about Matryoshka -our association with 2 friends of her. I still have to print my phone charms and bookmarks... oh god I'm SO LATE. I'll try to print the stuff this Saturday -even though I'm ill right now, I hope I'll get better soon. orz (though it's a nice excuse to avoid the birthday party of Saturday night ahahah YESSSS!)

I want to draw tonight but I have my Chinese lessons to revise and papers to do. *sobsobsooobbb*

I'll close this entry with cute photos I did with my phone (because I shamefully forgot my camera) with my rabu.♥

I like your hair, let's have sex.

2010-10-21T21:27:00.005+02:00

Today = holidays ♥

Tomorrow I'm off to Lausanne to see my girlfriend. Thanks to the strikes here, I've had lot of troubles to organize my journey (=__=).

But I can't wait to see her, it's been since July we didn't see each other. (;A;)

I don't know what to write anymore, I'm very sleepy right now. orz

"Tain comment t'as changéééé O: "

2010-10-10T16:47:00.008+02:00

Yesterday I went clubbing for the first time. Well, actually it was the second but the first was incredibly awful and nobody was into the club -so let's say it was a trial lol.

I went with my sister and Nasser, a new friend. We were supposed to eat together and then going to the César Palace (the club) but plans changed and we were joining by random (and physically awesome) guys: Kevin, Michael, Dimitri, Alexis and Adeline (2 were friends with Nasser, but the others was unknown XD). We ate pizzas at the restaurant, we drunk, (i took a Monacco because my love got me addicted to it♥) and then we went to Kevin's appartment to drink again, till 1:30 am (but I didn't get drunk, I just took 3 or 4 sips of vodka mixed with Oasis -I don't like alcohol). Then we went to the club and we danced till 6:00 am! Omg we didn't even know it was so late -or early, it depends of your point of view.

It was the Ibiza Night theme, so there were good music, trance/dance music ♥ AND OMG I THINK I JUST HAD AN ORGASM WHEN THEY PLAYED THE SWEDISH HOUSE MAFIA SONG.

Amen.

Um, I'm not in the mood to explain in details my night, but it was very good. I danced most of the time with my sister and Nasser, and then Michael rescued me from some perverted guys ; I danced with him till the end of the night (insert here the "EN TOUTE AMITIÉ" thing). Though Michael tried to get off with me even if he knew that I had a girlfriend. He. Was. Persistant. But thanks god he was nice, and I nicely told him I was in love with my girl and that's it.

YES I LOVE YOU, YOU MY BELOVED ONE. PLEASE, GET BETTER SOON, OKAY? I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO ANYMORE, BUT I LOVE YOU.

"Stressed" is "desserts" spelled backward.

2010-10-08T15:35:00.006+02:00

Oh hai.

I had an urge to write here -maybe because I don't want to work.
Indeed, I have a tone of work, a pile of assignments, and I don't even know where to start. Since yesterday I'm doing researches for my rhétorique de la critique courses, and I still don't know if I'll do my paper about the homosexuality in the Picture of Dorian Gray film (1945). I think I have more chances to find critics, essays and notes about that topic than on How Many miles to Babylon? by Jennifer Johnston *sob*. Too bad, I really wanted to base my thesis on "HELLO ALEC AND JERRY ARE LIVING A MORE-THAN-FRIENDLY RELASHIONSHIP" -but I liked the Dorian Gray's movie at least.
I watched it yesterday night but I didn't read the book of Oscar Wilde, I DON'T HAVE TIME *sob* . I've only found the movie in its original version WITHOUT SUBTITLES. At the very beginning it was hard to understand when the characters were speaking -I mean, do they even articulate? I managed to be accustomed after 10 minutes or so, though I think Lord Henry Wotton is an incomprehensible person at heart (but I love his hedonist philosophy ♥). I didn't find Dorian Gray that appealing; on the contrary I literary fell in love with the character of Sibyl Vane, performed by Angela Lansbury. She's maybe one of the most beautiful woman of the world.
Speaking about beautiful things, I absolutely loved the background of the movie. Dorian's house struck me to the heart -GREC DECORATION MY FRIENDS. All the mansion, from the door to the carpet, all was a reference to antiquity with statues, paintings, embroidery, etc. It was such a pleasure to my eyes, all seemed so refined and I think it helped to set a quite "gay" atmosphere.

Iiih okay I've always loved this part of History, but since I'm again into the Saint Seiya fandom I squee-ed like a fangirl when I saw a decoration of Athena in Dorian's house. YES, Saint Seiya is back to my heart. I've watched the 13 OAVs of The Lost Canvas saga and man, it rocks hard. I love the character design of Shiori Teshirogi, it's so fresh and it's not effeminate to the extreme, yes! I'm currently reading the manga, since the OAVs are only a compilation of the 6 first volume of the serie. I can't wait to see the Gemini knight ♥ and Kagaho akqjahsgas -I love Hadès and his generales.
Man, look at the fangirl I am. But it's SO GOOD to have a fandom again, I feel alive for a bit, and it helps to feel better sometimes.

Indeed I felt a little depressed those past days, because my sister quit college. Hence I've been alone at school, weaking up alone, walking to the train station alone, eating alone, etc. But in other hand it's something I needed in order to have a social life. Living always with my twin isn't a good thing for me, I know it since the very beginning, but it's hard to not laugh with her like we used to. Because college is depressing, having her by my side was important. Well, that was what I thought. Now that I'm alone, I have to go towards others to make friends. And I didn't know it would be so "easy", but I made 4 good friends (Sofien, Leïla, Hédi and Amélie) in few days, and other acquaintances. I'm less afraid to go to college now, but I still hate it. Also, a guy who is sitting next to me during the Chinese class is apparently the same as my sister and me, we have a lot in common, like OMG HE LIKES CLUBBING. Okay, Nasser mon cher, thanks to you I'll maybe have a social life.

*cough* But I think it's not for today, for I have to stop writting here and go back to my studies. I have Robinson Crusoe to read -I dropped The Pilgrim's Progress, it was too boring, like, worst than Jacques le Fataliste.

House s5ep20

2010-09-26T03:26:00.005+02:00

I've watched it today and I can't hold back my tears. I can't stop crying. It's only a fiction but I'm sad and afraid. Because a guy like him, so cheerful, a guy like him who was smiling to everybody, commited suicide. So then, how a girl like me is supposed to react?

I'm scared to be able to do some... things.

His corpse, her cries and yelling while attempting to resuscitate him -it brings back so horrible memories.

CALM. THE. FUCK. DOWN.

2010-09-20T19:02:00.006+02:00

AHSBHZADBHJ. No I can't. I can't calm down because -

I HAVE FINALLY RECEIVED THE TWO VOLUMES OF HONEYDEW SYNDROMEEEE !!!one1!! ♥
Okay I'm looking like a fangirl right now, jumping and screaming all around BUT I'm f*cking HAPPY.
This. made. my. day.

GAH.♥

I didn't think I'll be able to have this wonderful webcomic in my hands. NNNH.

JAY AND CHARLES, HERE I COOOME! *fapfap*

If you don't know Honeydew Syndrome GO READ IT RIGHT NOW : http://www.honeysyn.net/comic.php?p=17 ♥ (first page)

SCREW HOMEWORKS I HAVE HONEYSYN ♥♥ (and bonus pages ffffffff- )

Life sucked all over again.

2010-09-11T19:27:00.006+02:00

Herro thar.

I'm feeling so down right now ahah. Isn't a blog the best place to cry emo tears and bring the drama? OH THE DRAMA.

Well tomorrow is my last day of vacation. I don't want it to end because I'll be back to my stressful and annoying college life. I can't say the past 3 weeks were enjoyable either, it was rather a boredom. B-But I'm feeling so down, so sad and scared to return to college with people I don't know, just some acquaintances, and courses I despise.

Blah I've the impression I've lost all my English fluency (does it had ever existed? lolol)

I'm feeling like being on Sunday -I hate Sundays. I'm feeling empty, sad, down, depressed *OH THE DRAMA*. The thing is that mom announced bad news to me an hour ago -I hate family issues.

Yeah right. I was feeling unwell because it is the end of summer vacation AND now I know things, one of which I don't want to believe. Brother complex I must say.

I wanted to be comforted. I have been disappointed by the person I love the most. Why. I have been, like, ignored. It hurts so much.

Oh well. I'll fake a smile. Again.

(man I'm such an attention whore oTL )

Edit : I feel such a dumbass right now. She was here to comfort me after another bad news, she tried in her own way and I feel much better now. I love her so much.
Many thanks to Nighty too. You two are so precious to me. *hugs*

I must work harder and deeper (huurr 8D)

2010-08-31T00:28:00.003+02:00

I'm not good at coloring, let alone coloring bodies buhuhu (;__;)
I prefer the second one so far -though I love Jay's hair on the first version (;3;)

Porn is back

2010-08-29T19:54:00.006+02:00

It's been ages since I've drawn some porn but because of Hamletmachine's and Twisted's awesome arts I've been driven into horny mood ahah.
Jay and Noa © me and ELK (respectively)

I thought that Noa looked like Lithuania sooooo here LatxLithu~ (event though I'm not into this pairing, sex is sex~). I'm sure Russia is a peeping Tom somewhere~ 8D

Hey buddies, I'm back

2010-08-24T15:32:00.011+02:00

I'm finally at home, since yesterday night. The originally 10 vacation days in Spain turned out to be two damn weeks and the last days were LONG. I wanted the internet back, I wanted to talk to my friends and Jade, I wanted to check my messages, aaah.

I didn't tanned a lot ahah what a shame I know, especially since it was 40°C everyday orz I already miss the sun, here it's freezing ahgsafshze.
I didn't draw a lot of keychains, not as expected asbgjshza I failed sorry orz And now I'm too tired to do some, though my tablet is just next to my hand and I want to draw something (but not keychains ;A;''')

Anyway, these holidays weren't as bad as I thought. I had fun with the hens of my grandparent's farm, I loved watching them eating and running XD and it was nice to go to the beach. Aaand I had the opportunity to see Nighty and Seb twice when I slept in Bordeaux (;w;)/

Nighty, Seb and me during the outway journey in Bordeaux~

The view from the window of the bathroom. (Galicia, Spain)

The awesome bathroom of my grandparents (**) ♥

My sister (left) and me (right). I tanned a little~

Nighty and me at Seb's appartment during the return journey.

I didn't take a lot of photos from my trip orz I think my mom shot me while I was reading on the beach. I must ask her~

See ya

2010-08-05T22:15:00.004+02:00

I'm off to Spain tomorrow morning and DO NOT WANT. Seriously. Can't wait when I'll be returning home.

I already miss internet even though I'm on the comp right now.

I already miss ELK and my friends.

Ah, I don't want to go.

Tomorrow must be better than today.

2010-08-04T18:23:00.005+02:00

Hello.

I know that it's been a while since I've written here, and I thought I'd be more active... sorry. I'm just lazy to write in English -though I'm lazy to write in French as well, even if I have things to say.

Yesterday I spend the night at Mayu's house with my sister, Sam, Megane and Nawael; we did a surprise party to welcome back Nawael who stayed in Japan for a year. She told us lot of things that happened to her, and some are really... disturbing. I've known that Japanese people are "special" in their way, but really, some are near frightening. Though, she experienced good things too, I was feeling like going again (since I wasn't into Japan anymore). Well, not for studies, just for vacation and tourism with friends (and my love, I wish) =) .
We spend the night eating crêpes and watching/fangirling over Kpop video clips -FFFFFFFUUU. That was hot hot hot : D ♥

But today is another story. We're all packing things because we're going to Spain on friday morning for 10 days. Mom is excited and all stressed up, it gives me headaches to see her running everywhere and YELLING.
I don't want to go. No internet for 10 days -no talking with my friends nor my love. *sob sob*
I'll spend my time on my tablet, drawing and coloring keychains. Ah, I need to revise my Chinese lessons too orz.

I'm feeling really weird. I've not talked to my love since I'm back from Mayu's home (because she's offline) and I'm still waiting for her. *sad*
While waiting, I've watched the last episodes of Durarara. Man, I hate feeling this empty you know. But I'm relieved at the same time, because I've finally found an awesome anime. It's been since Code Geass that I wasn't enthralled by animu. D: I'm in love with Celty and Shizuo. Amen.

oh fate, oh you...

2010-06-09T14:56:00.003+02:00

I DIDN'T GET A TICKET FOR GACKT WEEEEH. 8'D

BUT MY SISTER DID WEEEEEEH. 8'D

Ahem. So yeah, bye bye Gackt, but don't worry I won't cry for you! (I'd 6 years ago though). Instead, I'm going to the concert of Versailles -Philharmonic Quintet-♥ Okay I've already seen them in 2006 but I really loved their last album JUBILEE; and I'll be able to see my dear dear Yuki *caresses his drum stick again -YES I HAVE ONE OF HIS DRUM STICK 8DDD*. I wonder if the members will do something for Jasmine...

I received the concert ticket this morning from GEKIDO TOUR and their tickets are always that gay :It was pink 4 years ago, now they've chosen purple (⌒ ∀⌒)v

I've watched the new GaGa's video clip ALEJANDRO this morning and ahshaszfdzeh ffffff- *fangasm* it's been 6 times I've watched it now. Men are definitely hot when they're dancing. AMEN.

Mozilla is lagging like hell right nao.

2010-06-06T22:11:00.006+02:00

H-Hello.
I know I've let my blog dying and believe me I don't like it either (lol as if people cared!), plus I have ton of things that happened but I'm just too lazy to write in English D:
An English student saying that...that beats everything!

Speaking of which, I've successfully passed my exams -one more year left before getting the English degree, yay! So I'm on vacation since May 18th C:
I'm planning on passing my highway code (I've suscribed to it yesterday), going to my gf's place during 10 days♥, going to Japan Expo and to GACKT's concert ffff- (well, if I get a ticket D: ). Guys, 7 years I've been waiting for him. 7 fucking years and now I'm not even sure to have a -fucking expensive- ticket before it's sold out. I didn't get a ticket for Lady GaGa's concert on next October although my sister did, so if I can't see at least Gackt...

About my (twin) sister, I'm feeling that we're not as close as we used to be before. Well, she is not as close as I want us to remain. I know we have to have our own life but still...I can't see my life without her (^^;) even though we have a lot of fight, we manage to laugh together 2 minutes after it. And yeah, I think I'm not ready to be independent unlike her. It makes me feel sad but I know I have to grow up.
The thing is, I'm afraid of growing up. Because of responsabilities, but not only. I've felt a lot of personnality changes through these years and I really don't like it. I don't like my actual self. Well, sometimes I do, for some reasons (like being a little more independent? just a little), but most of the time I feel as empty as a hole. I don't laugh that often, I'm not as 'crazy' as I used to be...and it causes me great grief. I'm becoming the person I used to despise when I was a teenager. Maybe it's normal, but still...if being an adult means being a boring and desillusioned person, well I don't ship it.

Ugh, this is getting on being an emo post, totally do not want.

On another note, I checked on the internet for a lazer printer. I would like one to print my chibis for keychains, and maybe posters, since someone asked me if I was doing commissions! Waw, this led me speechless for a few seconds. I often wondered if people would be interested about commissioning me but really, this was like a fantasy in my head. I'd never think that my work would be worth it. This made me very happy~ but I really can't do commissions with a law print quality. I could do traditional but it'd be only almost cleans lines and inked. I can't color properly on SAI, let alone traditionally! |D
Anyway, a lazer printer is expensive, I'll be waiting a little more lalala~

Wow it seems that I've written a pretty long entry XD just like before when the length of my posts was far more than 3 lines, not like the previous posts ahaha sorry. But in the end, writing distracted me for several minutes; now I'm back to my boredom~

HOLIDAYS MOTHERFUCKERS!!

2010-05-18T13:19:00.002+02:00

Oh yeah. Finally. HO-LI-DAYS. *cries*
All my college exams went quite well I think; I had my last English oral exams yesterday -and it was so tiring.
I can't wait to see all my grades *waiting until May 26th*

To celebrate, have a sexy trailer of the new MBLAQ single released the same day of my vacations 8D

nnng why did G.O. shaved his moustache ?! (QnQ)

I wish I could sleep without waisting time

2010-05-06T14:08:00.003+02:00

Yesterday night's dream was weird but epic. I had to dance on BEAST's song "Shock" in front of an admissions board. I tried to reproduce the choreography b-but I failed LOL. Ahh I was enthralled though. When I woke up I had stars in my head ; the only thing I wanted was to go on youtube to watch the Shock practice video! XD; -what I did as soon as I turned the computer on lmao.
Ah, I really want to learn the choreography though. Since I don't do any sports I think it'd be a good thing to dance -I'd like to have a Wii and the Just Dance game, I tested it at a friend's place and it's so effective! ;_;

I'm always focusing on hyun seung while watching the video♥. Even with the ugliest coat on Earth he's still so cool XD

BEAST is the BEST

2010-04-22T16:24:00.002+02:00

hyun seung ♥

camwhorelolol

2010-04-21T13:56:00.008+02:00

Sometimes I like putting my camera on. Narcissism ahahahrr. B-But it was just to test the lighting this time 8D;;

Anyway, I did a quick and random photo yesterday and—OMG I had almost the same face as Hyung-Nim (from the Kdrama “You’re beautiful”) (°A°)♥♥

Too bad a I had the glasses though.

And my twin sister and me like to do awkward poses together.

LOLOLOL. *goes hide herself*

FUCK IT

2010-04-17T01:12:00.007+02:00

FUCK IT ALL. Too kind, too fucking stupid. FUCK FUCK FUCK FUUUUUUCK!!!! (rage_) <-I miss this icon
And I don't have chocolate to eat anymore. How can I get better now?

Another gayyy sunshine day~

2010-03-24T18:46:00.006+01:00

I'm feeling a little better than yesterday.

Please don't think the previous post was just a random emo post, it was a deadly serious affair. I had the impression to be in a bad drama. But I won't explain it, it's...personal.
Anyway. Thanks to people who was there for me. I'll turn my head towards the futur, and don't want to be sad anymore. Plus, sunny days are finaly back, I don't want to waste the happiness I deserve (it's not egoistic at all, I think everybody deserves to be happy).

To my mind, we need to focus more on the chance we have to have a good health. I think about my dear friend Ciel for example, who suffered from a teratoma and lost her right ovary. While reading the news from her dA today, I was very worried and I felt so sad for her. But the fact that we need to size the day stroke me even more. Just...enjoy your life, you don't know what will happen. Don't waste your precious time on -sometimes futile- problems (ok it depends on the situation, but you get my point, right?).
The more I grow up, the more my view over things tends to change. I'm trying to be a better person, with better ideas and a better moral. Sometimes I even want to do like Benjamin Franklin with his 13 virtues list! XD (except chastity LOL)

Btw, tomorrow I have an American civilization exam. Uuurg I'm not ready at all ahahahah-*dead*

When life gives you lemons, squeeze them in peoples eyes.

2010-03-23T10:41:00.003+01:00

How ironical life can be.

Just when I said to Nighty on the phone yesterday that my life never had been as bright as it was. And few minutes later all was shattered.

How ironical life can be.

Today is a sunny day, I can smell Spring. I'll try to smile, maybe Titine will be able to make me laugh...but I doubt my joy will be sincere.

K-DRAMAAAA

2010-03-21T00:51:00.004+01:00

Pffft. Instead of revizing for my American civilization test (which is on next Thursday) and doing my Chinese lessons, I took the whole day watching 11 episodes of the K-drama 'GOONG'. I-It's awesome, I cried at EACH episodes. B-But I can't find the next episodes ( ;A;") I tried wat.tv and Veoh but there is nothing, ugh. *despairs*

I think I'll have to wait for French, or at least English fansub. Or a torrent to download it. (;A;) I WANT MOAR.

Oh, and I just drew Raivis. Um, I'm not really comfortable with my art anymore.

C-Coooosplay.

2010-03-18T23:54:00.005+01:00

I've finally received the fringes for my Latvian costume today! They're golden and pretty ♥ Tomorrow mom will give them to the couturier. I hope she had already done the trousers. Ahhh I can't wait to see my finished costume, I've taken lot of time to search for the best materiel, beautiful buttons and especially the f*cking golden fringes for the epaulets!

I'm disappointed to not to be able to sew. I would like to learn and to do my costumes by myself as my gf does D: She put the webcam and showed me her costume of Russia (not finished yet). She's so cuuute. *squee*

Beware, bad quality is BAD.

Sunshiiiiiiine never diiiiiiies!

2010-03-15T16:08:00.006+01:00

Hey guys, I'm feeling better. Thanks to Titine (Justine is her real name; she's my close friend from college) who is like a blinding sunshine. She has that power to make your heart warm and to make you happy whenever you see her.
Plus today I had the result of my previous Chinese exam...I got a 18.5/20! man I'm soooo happy. Though my sister had a 20/20 *jealous* XD

I've just finished my FSL (French Sign Language -language for deaf people) course and now I'm skipping a boring 4pm to 7pm class C: I'm such a BAAAD GIRL. We had a new teacher for FSL... a young and handsome man. Ohohoh. I tried not to drool. It was hard; especially when you don't know if he is a deaf teacher or not :'D so when I entered the class I held back a "ohmygod he is so hot!" 'cause I wasn't 100% sure he was deaf (he seemed to be actually) and... HE WAS NOT. Ahah lucky I got my mouth shut! But he has such a clear and beautiful voice. Unfortunately it was apparently the only course I'll have with him, since it seems that he was just remplacing the former teacher. Too bad!

Urgh. I really do have the impression that my English is broken. OTL I want to go to an English speaking country to improve... but I don't have friends to go with (;A;) (I don't have money too, ahah THE detail of doom.)

Well, now I'm off to do my American civilization homeworks for Thursday!

s-sob

2010-03-15T00:01:00.003+01:00

I just feel like crying right now. Though I said yesterday night all was alright with me... Eh, guess I'm not that strong. But I don't want to be moody anymore. I just want to be happy, for ever.
*Off to sleep.*

Keep calm and have a cupcake

2010-03-13T21:47:00.005+01:00

I wanted to draw something to cheer up my gf who is down lately. Well, I think I'm too lazy and eaten by art block to do something clean so...ROUGH WORK MY FRIEND : D ♥
I love drawing Jay & Noa ♥

Also, I miss drawing Latvia, but I've no inspiratioooon. I'm browsing pixiv time to time but my creativity seems DEAD. Thanks to college I'M SURE! D:<

I've been feeling HIGH lately. Dunno why. It's strange, especially when most of my online friends seem on a depressive mood. (éè)*sends gayness to everyone*

I'm sorry I love you but--

2010-03-01T23:17:00.002+01:00

I'm just a little tired of crying almsot everynights.

Please feel better.

xxx

Short story

2010-02-28T11:42:00.011+01:00

EDIT: I've finally choosen "You will feel a dream" for the title~

I finished my short story yesterday night! I'm pretty proud of it, even though I did not write the end I had in mind on the first place.
Also, I'm still hesitating about the title: Colored enough to say goodnight OR You will feel a dream ?? Please tell me which one you prefer (;w;)
Besides, please take into account that English is absolutely NOT my mother tongue so there may be some mistakes, I'm sorry. ( ;w;")

*****

You’ll feel a dream.

You woke up sweating. Again. You could hear your heartbeat in your ears, your limbs were paralyzed, and you could hardly breathe –or just did not want to. In your face was dread. You focused on the silence of your bedroom, waiting for something to happen. It did not happen and it will not, and unconsciously you knew it perfectly well. It was the third time this week you had had a nightmare. Once you were wide awake, you could not even remember it and you got upset. When you glanced at your alarm you read 4:32 am. You wished the digits might be a lie, that you had more than one hour left to sleep –but they were no lie and you got even more upset. You sighed. Now you had to choose between the two crucial and distressing decisions: one was to get up (and obviously jumping out of your bed that early was not often in your plan); the second was to try to fall asleep again. The first one would give you enough time to do some housework. Yes, that made sense. But it did not mean you wanted to. Actually the second choice was not too appealing either; everybody knew that you were even more tired when you resumed your sleep. It was all wretchedly masochistic. You sighed again, almost whining. You eventually crawled out of your bed, cursing God so that at least next time you will not be able to sleep properly, you would know why. Your feet automatically led you to the bathroom, in front of the mirror. These past days had been as awful as your face now showed you. Your complexion was as fresh as a corpse’s, you had bag under your eyes and you obviously needed a good shave. You just looked extremely tired. Life was tiring, work was tiring, even sleep was tiring –could you not find refuge in anything? You sighed again, more like a moan. Shower time.

Fortunately, according to the weather forecast today would be a sunny day; a –very –early morning walk might be nice, and so might be a yummy breakfast on a terrace. You opened your shutters and saw an orange, almost red sky mixed with several touches of pink and blue. This marvelous view made you happy, the kind of happiness that makes you want to cry. You wished the sky was your lover.

Once you got your things ready for work, you checked the clock again before closing the door: 5:28 am. You start work at 8:30 am. Nice. So you had plenty of time to spend, and you mentally noted to yourself to stop sighing. As you went downstairs you put your iPod on shuffle; you lived in a common but comfy apartment and your neighbors, as far as you knew them, seemed quite nice. Well, you were not a particularly sociable person anyway; sometimes people said you were twisted. Perhaps this is also the reason why you lived alone. If you were to go around carrying a placard it would read, “Please don’t talk to me - I fall in love so easily.” And on the back there would be, “any relationship with me is an unhealthy one” –in capital letters. Well, being alone did not have to mean being lonely, right? There would be questions that could be difficult to answer, so you simply avoided them; you preferred to focus on the sky and your random music, so random that you hoped no one would ask you what you were listening to. Actually, you would be unlikely to pass anyone considering the early hour: you looked around and you thought it was probably the first time you had seen that large street so deserted and calm (as calm as it could be while listening to your iPod, that is). You felt at ease and continued your way through a little but charming alley, deciding to take an unusual, longer path.

Your feet stopped in front of an art gallery and you could not restrain a rather bitter laugh. “That painting looks like ketchup on grass! –and for not less than 1060€!” You said to yourself. You already knew you had ruined your life working for a phone platform trying to sell high-tech vacuum cleaners, but to see this so-called-art-shit exposed in a windowpane at that price made your heart disappear into dust. Then you had an idea. An idea so crazy that your head would explode. Note to yourself: perhaps pooping on a pink canvas with a beautiful frame and trying to sell it for 2000€ was not such a good idea, really; but it made you smile. Actually, you did like visiting art galleries; it reminded you of when you were younger with imagination and creativity flowing through your head. You did not paint but you drew a lot on sketchpads, you were very good actually. Your family wanted you to go to an art school, but you refused because you did not want to mix pleasure and work. Maybe this decision was a big mistake after all, but in any case, the more you grew up the more blasé you became. Inspiration was dying step by step, and now you were definitely suffering from artist block; it was devouring your soul, making you an empty shell. You were thirty years old now and you could still feel it, the nothingness. There were no colors anymore, except in the sky and through the music, but your pens were dried and your sheets remained blank. An apparently endless frustration. What mattered now was how you decided to use the idea of having nothing matter. It could go either way. In the eventual end, you were dead anyway.

You went on following the paving stones of the silent passage when a ray of light shone out suddenly from a pane of glass, making you blind for a moment. When you opened your eyes you found you were unexpectedly facing a young boy. He was approximately ten, with brown hair hidden under a cap and wearing old fashioned clothes. His eyes, as far as you could see them, were of a deep blue and –oh yeah, he was holding multicolored balloons, something that obviously appealed to your curiosity. What the heck was a child doing in the street at –you checked your watch –at 5:59 am with dozens of balloons in his hand? No, more than that, when and how did he appear in front of you without your noticing him? The balloons seemed to glow, dancing with the wind; they looked like puppets on a string, which, maybe, was all they were to the little boy. A shiver went down your spine and you did not know even why. You just felt as if something was wrong, or at least, not technically right –you had never been comfortable with children anyway. You took your headphones off but before you had the time to say a word he suddenly smiled at you. You were nearly knocked off your feet by the effect. Being that cute should be criminal.

“Mister, choose a balloon.” Oh, so the little thing could speak? And what an adorable voice he had, as captivating as his eyes. But you did not fancy the idea of going to your office with a balloon, especially since your colleagues already thought you were weird. You knelt down and gave him an embarrassed smiled.

“Sorry lil’ guy, I can’t take one with me, I –“

“Please, Mister. Choose a balloon. One of them is for you; I want you to take one.” You were surprised by the sudden change of tone, a more serious one. But he was still smiling at you, a very warm smile…and that made you uncomfortable. You winced as he opened his ruby lips again, this time with a grin: “I’m a Dream Seller.”

If it was not the most surprising statement you had ever heard, might lightning strike you and your illegal song downloads dead. You could not restrain a heart-felt-laugh and you patted his head, but strangely enough, it felt as though your hand touched nothing but clouds. Once again, you shivered; maybe all that was due to the lack of your morning caffeine or maybe you were facing a Dream Seller for real. ‘Keep calm and have a cupcake’ was what your grandmother would have said to you.

“I’m a Dream Seller” he repeated, still smiling. But there was now something almost unrealistic about his sweet voice, about his smile, and about his eyes as blue as the ocean –and the longer you stared at them, the more you felt as if you were drowning. “Breathe, breathe, breathe!” you said to yourself as you tried not to hyperventilate. Second chances do not come often. “I’m a Dream Seller and I offer you a balloon. Please choose whichever one appeals most to your senses.” Always that smile that made your blood boil and your knees go weak. Your retinas became attracted by the colored balloons again –which one to choose? Orange? Red? Yellow? Blue? Apple green? You just wanted them all! You wanted the wind to push them into your arms. You wanted to feel a dream. You held out your hand.

“Have a Good Night, Mister.”

It was the last thing you could hear as your ears began to ring –or was it only a clock?

I'm not dead YET

2010-02-27T12:04:00.003+01:00

Long time no see eh ? I'm sorry for my inactiveness but actually I'm lazy to write in English (^^;)
I don't even know if someone read my entries anyway lolol.

I'm currently on holidays but I resume class on Monday. One week of holidays is really too short.
I went to Switzerland to my girlfriend's place during 4 days ♥ I'll remember this trip for a long long time, especially because my suitcase had been stolen on the train lolol. But I managed to get it back the day next my arrival; luckily for me it was just a holiday camp that took my suitcase by mistake. Putting the drama aside, I had awesome holidays. I cooked with Jade (she's a really good cook, I feel ashamed to not be able to do yummy meals like she does orz) and we spent...pleasant nights LOL. Besides, Lausanne is a very lovely city with a lot of shops and charming alleys. Too bad I didn't have my camera with me (TAT;)

Also, I'm happy because mom accepted my relationship with Jade, even though I know it's still a little hard for her to stand it. I'm sorry mom, but once you'll meet Jade and taste her food, I'm sure you'll love her! ♥ (even though she's slightly crazy XD)

Um what else? I have still my tone of work to do for college. No time to draw...though I just don't have inspiration anymore. I feel like an empty shell. PLEASE HELP ME I DON'T WANT MY ARTISTIC MOOD TO DIE. (;______;)
I have to write a short story for the English newspaper of my college and I wanted to do an illustration for it but...aaaaah I just can't write a SHORT story. It's too long and not finished yet so I think there won't be enough place for an illustration *sob*
I'll publish the story here when done. I hope you'll like it♥

I don't know which animu to watch. I want to find a shojo animu as good as Lovely Complex (;w;) Yesterday I tried Kimi no todoke and Yamato nadeshiko shichi henge but I couldn't watch more than 2 episodes. IT'S JUST TOO NAIVE AND CLICHE ARGH. Guys, guys, I need your help. Please I'm so bored on the internet and I don't have anything to watch lately. *sobsob*

I shall try Durarara at least. But still, I would like a shojo too.

Ah, I should work on my Latvia cosplay too, because the convention is on April! (oAo) *has nothing but the wig and the boots lolol*

Drawing drawing drawing \o/

2010-01-17T01:10:00.006+01:00

It's been a while since I've drawn something which looks like a real drawing and not a sketchy thing or a simple drawing like chibis.

My online twin brother requested me a girlfriend LOL. So here she is, and he seemed to appreciate her...a lot XD

I like this version too (;w;)

When you see the light of the morning star, then you feel my absence (and love)

2010-01-15T11:17:00.006+01:00

My exams are finally over, I can rest a little till Sunday. Though my next semester is going to be a total mess since my timetable is a big shit with subjects that won't help me through my whole life LOL. Hey, it's college after all. Useless thing is useless.
I'm willing to go to Paris for my last year of degree. Oh yeah, but having an English degree doesn't mean you can speak English. So, I also have to go to an English speaking country once. I'm afraid to go alone, but I have to. And really, I want to speak English very well, with british accent bwahahaha.

besides;
I miss my love.
I wish I could draw something.

Instead of an interesting post, have an awesome music from Edward Maya ♥

DUST ON THE CD!

2010-01-01T01:57:00.005+01:00

Oh God it's been a long time since I've posted something here. *cough cough*

Well--

~*HAPPY NEW YEAR 2010 ! ♥ *~

I wish you all the best for this new year, take care everybody c:

I was supposed to go to a party BUT my sister and me are sick...err not a very end/beginning of year isn't it ? orz

xxx

Formspring

2009-12-12T23:41:00.003+01:00

http://www.formspring.me/megu

Ask me something~ ♥

And Sunday always comes too late.

2009-12-06T23:10:00.006+01:00

I planned to do lot of drawings for my friends as Xmas gifts but due to the artblock and exams I think my plans are ruined *sob*
I wish I could do wonderful gifts to those I love, but unfortunately I'm broken...and no 'talent' anymore. That kinda sucks D:

Today I tried to draw Latvia, because I miss him (;v;) it ended lik this :

And here ELK's version XD she traced with my sketched head reference. Isn't he super cute ? ♥

MUST. FIND. INSPIRATION.

2009-12-03T14:37:00.002+01:00

I should stop skipping class

2009-11-26T20:59:00.004+01:00

Really, I know I should but it's so tempting sometimes.
Especially when you hate the teacher who doesn't especially like you either.
Especially when the teacher is lecturing you DURING TWO HOURS THE SAME THINGS that are written in front of you, on your papers.
Sometimes, college is really useless and boring.

I don't know about my future, and that's what I'm really afraid of.Useless post, so here some doodles I did during class D:

A cure for no real sickness, cross your hopes and die

2009-11-22T21:42:00.003+01:00

IAMX - THIS WILL MAKE YOU LOVE AGAIN.

When the joys of living just leave you cold
Frozen from the failing mess you've made your own
And if you want an ending to your screenplay life
Well here's the consolation
That will change your heart and mind

And all the glitz messiah's just pass the time
A cure for no real sickness, cross your hopes and die
Your supermarket jesus comes with smiles and lies
Where justice he delays is always justice he denies

This will make you love again...

And now you're safe
Love again
To feel the rays
Love again
The sweet delays
Love again
And shoot the breeze

Early thursday mornings
Wipe away the flies
The crossfire fight for action
In between your thighs
And every touch is sacred
When they leave the room
If i have to switch the lights off
I wanna switch them off with you

This will make you love again...

And now you're safe
Love again
To feel the rays
Love again
The sweet delays
Love again
And shoot the breeze
Love again

I wanted love but I got lust. I wanted lust but I got love.

2009-11-08T17:49:00.001+01:00

I'm sure Jay's begging Justin. ♥

Pixiv

2009-11-06T23:01:00.003+01:00

Okay, after creating my account on Pixiv almost 6 months ago... I AT LEAST know how to upload my drawings.
Good. (y)

But it wasn’t anyone else, of course. It was just her and anger.

2009-11-04T20:16:00.005+01:00

How frustrating it is when you worked with effort on a drawing that at last doesn't please you at all.

I've always wanted to draw Latvia in warm Russian clothes but I feel like failing. How, HOW frustrating.

Ah, I'm breaking donw, again. Such an attention whore I am. Eh.

MEGANE NO MIKIPARI.

2009-10-31T22:11:00.004+01:00

Hey hey !

Because of my lazyness I won't do a live report of the concert and the Hetalia Day OTL um...let's say it was awesome, kay ? \o/ *gets shot*

I feel the end of my art block little by little...but style, i've the impression I can't draw properly, or big pictures.
Today I tried to draw Noa (ELK's OC ) and Jay (my OC).

It's so fun to draw Noa ♥ I love him more and more. Hope he'll end with Jay in the rp D;

Jay and his moe faceeee (*v*) -who said I took myself as a reference for my OC ?

MUCC & Hetalia

2009-10-22T19:58:00.002+02:00

FFF tomorrow I'm off to Paris to see MUCC on live ♥♥ It's the second time I see them but they're so amazing, I'm so happy ;u; -though i have to wake up at 4:40 am orz

Plus on Saturday I'll attend the HETALIA DAY in Paris (actually I'm the one organizing it @@). Weeeh. We'll all meet under the Eiffel Tower. ♥

CAN'T WAIT. C:

Jay, my new OC ♥

Insert a sexy title here.

2009-10-14T22:34:00.003+02:00

Fem!Russia x Fem!Latvia, done at college (most of it) c:

And I know there are some mistakes orz

I still can't draw

2009-10-07T23:26:00.002+02:00

NOTHING. ABSOLUTELY NOTHING COMES TO MY MIND. oTL

You do agree that life sucks sometimes ?

2009-10-01T22:57:00.004+02:00

Bwahahaha. Okay college really do sucks. *SOB AT HER FUCKING TIMETABLE*

Anyway... I drew it on the train today~
*goes back crying in a corner*

"Good or bad, it was luck all the same."

2009-09-28T20:59:00.007+02:00

Today college started. And my day sucked. hard. *dies*

I ended by skipping 4 hours of class. Don't blame me, I'm really down lately and-- well in a way it's not entirely my fault since my timetable is a mess. But hopefully now it's fixed. And so I'll be able to have 1h30 of Russian civilisation every mondays, yaaay ♥

Though, I spent a good time with my former friends from high school (despite the fact that our college is HUGE I had the luck to find them while skipping ! --they were skipping too, see ? I'm not the only one to blame here ! XD ). I didn't saw some of them since a long time so I'm very happy. Hope we'll be able to meet more, because I'm really lonely at college. ( ;_;")

Blarg, I'm already very tired though I only had 4 hours today OTL
I think tomorrow's going to be hard : 9:00 am to 7:00 pm without a break to eat before 1:00 pm, woot !
I WANT MY 17 HOURS OF COURSES PER WEEK BACK ! NOT 21h30 ! D: *sob*
I know it's not fair from me to complain since 21h30 isn't too much compared to some of you. I-I'm sorry...It's because I'm French ! LMAO *bad excuse, really ?*
But what really pisses me off is that teachers decided to cancel our Autumn's vacation due to the strikes of March-April-May. That means no break till Christmas wtf. Isn't that a little unfair ? They could have just given us like--dunno, 3 days off ? OTL

Okay stop complaining now, promise--until tomorrow C: *gets shot*

I want to make you cum 200 times in a day.

2009-09-27T19:13:00.005+02:00

I drew Bondage!Latvia ffff.

Elk said it's an 'evil' pron, LOLWHA--- is she right ? DB
Oh guys I'm such in an art block mood, I hate it OTL

How beautiful is the Beauty, when we belief in Our eyes

2009-09-22T16:46:00.007+02:00

Yesterday I've received my new coat from japan, woooh. I love it, damn I love it. ♥

Even my mom wants to steal it from me kekeke.

No smoking, no drinking, alone in bed... I'M A DISGRACE TO FRANCE !

2009-09-19T20:43:00.003+02:00

I want Raivis's clothes like, right now :c

Her lesson is french kissing and she's kissing me

2009-09-16T23:23:00.002+02:00

I love you.

Both of you.

I don't want to hurt you, and I don't even know how long I'd be able to handle it.

What am I supposed to do ?

"DAS IST EIN BINGOoooO"

2009-09-10T13:43:00.017+02:00

Long time no see ! (^^)

Actually I was off for my trip to Nighty's house, in Vence near Nice (south of France). It's a really cute city, and I had lot of fun ! Plus a week with my beloved Nighty was just wonderful ♥
Time passed so fast, it was like a little segment of time, really.

Nighty I miss you ( ;___;)/ *sob*
Also I miss her parents who are very sweet, and her pets (Divaaa !). OH, AND HEAT. D:

I'm in a very melancholic mood now. But thanks to the pictures I took, I have beautiful memories ! ♥

Here some, but I have over 80 photos ! (**)

LOL we tried a LIFE Hetalia version. Well, we didn't have white Tshirt actually, so we did with what we had XD;
Ladies & gentlemen, please Francis and Raivis !

Fff me loves.

2009-08-28T01:15:00.001+02:00

IAMX - Spit it out

And if you're hurting
I will replace the noise with silence instead
Flushing out your head

If you like it violent
We can play rough and tumble
Fall into bed
And I won't breathe so you can recover

When you're in pieces
Just follow the echo of my voice
It's okay
Tune into that frequency

Don't fight your reflex
Embrace the instinct
You can feel your way
Through the bed and weak face in the end

'cause it breaks my heart
That we live this way
I know people need love
'cause them people never play the game
And we talk the talk
We communicate
The people need love
Those people never play the game

Pleasure for pleasure
It eases consequence
And love for a fall
But I know you love to take a risk

The past is weakness
Don't beg the question when the answer is war
There are moments when I'm overcome

'cause it breaks my heart
That we live this way
I know people need love
'cause them people never play the game
And we talk the talk
We communicate
Them people need love
Those people never play the game

And it breaks my heart
And it breaks my heart
In love

I'm listening to it endlessly.

2009-08-25T14:23:00.003+02:00

EDWARD MAYA - Stereo Love

When you're gonna stop breaking my heart
I don't wanna be another one
Paying for the things I never done
Don't let go
Don't let go
To my love
Can I get to your soul
Can you get to my thoughts
Can you promise we won't let go
All the things that I need
All the things that you need
You can make it feel so real.
Cuz' you can't deny
You've blown my mind
When I touch your body
I feel I'm loosing control
Cuz' you can't deny
You've blown my mind
When I see you baby
I just don't wanna let go
When you're gonna stop breaking my heart
I don't wanna be another one
Paying for the things I never done
Don't let go
Don't let go
To my love
I hate to see you cry
Your smile is a beautiful lie
I hate to see you cry
My love is dying inside x2
I can fix all those lies
But baby, baby I run, but I'm running to you
You won't see me cry, I'm hiding inside
My heart is in pain but I'm smiling for you
Oh baby I'll try to make the things right
I need you more than air when I'm not with you
Please don't ask me why, just kiss me this time
My only dream is about you and I
Can I get to your soul
Can you get to my thoughts
Can you promise we won't let go
All the things that I need
All the things that you need
You can make it feel so real
Cuz' you can't deny
You've blown my mind
When I touch your body
I feel I'm losing control
Cuz' you can't deny
You've blown my mind
When I see you baby
I just don't wanna let go
When you're gonna stop breaking my heart
I don't wanna be another one
Paying for the things I never done
Don't let go
Don't let go
To my love
I hate to see you cry
My love is dying inside
I can fix all those lies
But baby, baby I run, but I'm running to you
You won't see me cry, I'm hiding inside
My heart is in pain but I'm smiling for you
Oh baby I'll try to make the things right
I need you more than air when I'm not with you
Please don't ask me why, just kiss me this time
My only dream is about you and I

I think I love myself too much...²

2009-08-24T21:50:00.002+02:00

FUCK BECAUSE OF DA I'LL HAVE TO REMOVE HIS DICK ! >: *CRIES A RIVER*

Can't wait to send it to danch =D

I think I love myself too much...

2009-08-24T17:16:00.003+02:00

...because of THAT :
HUUURRRR ♥

I'm feeling sick ._.

2009-08-21T16:26:00.001+02:00

I like this version C:

It's too hot I'm drying out. orz

2009-08-20T13:54:00.004+02:00

I think I'm really lucky in a way. Yesterday I forgot my phone in the train but fortunately, after calling the train station, they found it \o/ then I had to wait till the next train in order to get it back from the ticket inspector. God may exist |D

Oh, and look at what I've found yesterday night on 4chan |D ♥
It's not the first time my drawings show on that -awesome- site, but it's still surprising when you discover one ^^;

"bois cul sex" (y)

2009-08-12T12:30:00.004+02:00

O-OOOKAY. I didn't even post something about the episode 29. I'm ashamed /wrist

So yeah yesterday I saw the English subbed episode and omfg *squeeee like the fangirl I am* (>w<) ♥♥ A word : RAIVIS. No. Better than that : RUSLAT. Yeah, better. |D
Latvia is just--CUTE. AND IDIOT LMAO. Ah, BUT (yeah, there is a BUT) give me back his violet eyes ! (;___;)
I-I--- I'm so happy though, words can't express my feelings ! Or maybe AJKASFDGHAZSKZSASJLZADJSZAKJSHAHZDJK♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

Oh and ~*surprise*~

Pirate Russia's version~ But the coloring is a headache !! I tried so many ways, so many colors...it just won't fit. Even Elk tried with me. I'm feeling so down because it's a gift for her and I'm not even able to do it properly ( |||;A;)

Cause it's Friday and I'm in love.

2009-08-07T20:38:00.007+02:00

I wish love was easier. Oh well~~

YAAAAAAHHHHH LATVIA APPEARS IN THE EPISODE 29 ! Finally ! (*__*) fdaszsjkajsdh. I'm excited. fangirl. yeah.
Seriously, I had to wait 29 f*cking episodes to see him (okay he did appear in episode 1 but, like, 3 seconds ? D: ). Aaaahhhh can't wait Monday, I caaan't. *insert fangirl sounds here*

Fortunatelly I've already listened to the mp3 version of the episode. RAIVIS. He doesn't have the same voice as in the drama cd. Umm, it's an older voice and, yeah, manlier. But he still sounds super cute ♥
AND RUSSIA. RUSSIA I LOVE YOU. "VODKAAAA~~" omfg ♥

MY VITAL REGIONS ARE SCREAMING WITH JOY

Man, I wish Monday was earlier. ( j Aj)

Raivis in pseudo-pirate outfit. Because pirates are sexy >;T ♥
But I just don't know what to do with the lineart. Arf, maybe I'll post it like that on dA ? I'll ask advice from Elk. And she wants me to draw Russia in pirate too~~ : D

Oh, look at what I've found !

"Shaking love" (0:37) and "Older!Latvia" (2:34) are in |DD ♥ *proud*

Cosplay time !

2009-08-03T21:51:00.018+02:00

Today I was really bored so I decided to do another Raivis cosplay, yay ! :)
But I still have to work with the wig... you know, curly hair DDD:
Enjoy !

Taken from my mobile phone XD

What an uninteresting post.

2009-08-01T22:01:00.006+02:00

I can't wait the end of October for the concert of MUCC in Paris. I'm always thinking about it---well, okay I less think about it than thinking spending my day and night with Nighty. /shot
Oh, oh... I'm so impatient~~ *nudge nudge towards Nighty*
And god, I hope she won't see that ROFL.

Uuuh today I did a page of my RusLat doujin, yay~~ Only 7 pages are done, I'm so slow XD;;

It's hot today, I can't breath properly in my room, even if it's by night and I've the window open OTLLOL DON'T ASK THX.

Twitter

2009-07-29T12:01:00.001+02:00

Hey guys~~
I have a Twitter, feel free to add me C: ♥

"It was a gift from Lithuania"

2009-07-26T22:59:00.003+02:00

Explained Latvia to Russia~~ Ahah I love that kind of pyjamas ♥

LEGENDS OF THE FALL

2009-07-24T23:15:00.004+02:00

....this movie is just GORGEOUS.
A friend lend it to me and was all "omfg tell me what you think about it ! send me an email as soon as you've watched this masterpiece!!!" ...he is always excited about movies so...I thought it'd be a good movie but not that good, srsly. This. Movie. Is. AWESOME.

First I loved the story, with beautiful landscapes and OST. And it's taking place during WWI, hiii. (okay since Hetalia I'm very fond of WW, even though I've already liked it before)
Secondly : the actors. I knew that Brad Pitt was a great actor but in that movie... god he just assassinated me. The way he plays is just gorgeous, especially when he cries. A good actor is when an actor can cry and make you cry. And he did, oh so many times he did it. My head is still dizzy from crying ahah. AND there is also the GORGEOUS Anthony Hopkins. Ffff I so do love this man, I was very happy when I saw him in the cast ! He... he made me cry too (;_;)
Okay I cried all along the story ahahahah. It feels good ♥

WATCH THIS MOVIE IF YOU HAVEN'T YET ! \o/

Little Latvia, crying as always... done in a hurry :]

I'm sorry

2009-07-22T23:21:00.007+02:00

Okay I know it's been a long time since I wrote something here D:
I've the impression I've nothing interesting to say that is--and okay I'm lazy to write in English OTL

Uh, today I bought some clothes~
2 jeans and 3 tops, which 2 of them are cool shirts ♥ I wanted some like those so badly ;u;

And for people who already knows my bedroom, you can see that I've a ~*green*~ wall ♥ actually my sister and me just finished to repaint our bedroom. It's so pretty now : 2 green walls, and 2 purple/greyish ones.
I'll post photos when the decorations will be put on (posters, canvas and stuff~). It's very blank actually, and I'm lazy LOL.

Oh, and good news : I got my first year of my English degree 8D ♥ two years left if I do well. \o/

Uh...

2009-07-09T11:01:00.003+02:00

Falling in love with two girls at the same time isn't an esay task. Ahahah. orz

Sorry for my inactiveness b-but I was busy with Japan Expo which was awesomely awesome. SRSLY. Waah. I'm still writing the live report on my LJ but it'll be in French sorry D:
Anyway, it's that long that nobody will read it AHAHAH. OTL

Thursday doesn't even start.

2009-06-25T16:28:00.004+02:00

Oups sorry, it seems that my blog is dying ahah (;_;"")

Exams are over and I'm finally on holidays! Though I don't have a summer job at last so... my mom is pushing me to pass my driving license instead. I really don't want to :I
Also, she doesn't want me to stay on the comp during the day, only at night OTL (but I'm sneaking while she's at home ahahah---like right now. )

It's Japan Expo soon ! OMG I'll be able to see Sab and Nighty, I'm so happy ♥ and a lot of my friends from dA, like Senri ♥
Gaaah. I still have to work on my cosplay--like curling the hair of my Regene wig, buy white shoes and do something about the glasses (damn why is he wearing glasses, grrr). I can't wait to see my costume too~

Oh guys, I'm currently doing a RussiaLatvia doujin (R18 lalala~) |D
I still haven't the title nor a cover, but 4 pages are already done, woohoooo~~

I don't know what to write ahah. (;_;)
Yesterday I went to a camping with some friends, it was fun. I'll post the photos as soon as I have them ! ♥

I'm 19 now ;v;

2009-06-14T22:29:00.006+02:00

H-Hiii.

Today I revised for my exams which are starting tomorrow wooo! /shot

But guess what ? I'm the happiest girl in the world !
Today I turned 19~~ and--I-- I had a lot of surprise ( ;__; ) ♥
Such wonderful drawings, oh my. I don't deserve them all, really. YOU are all amazing, seriously. ( ;__; )♥♥ *hugs everybody*

Thank you to everyone who wished my birthday, it really means a lot to me ( ;_; ) ♥ I---I had a wonderful day, because of you all ! *squee* ♥

By MoTheAwesome

By ELK

By Miharu

By Satsu

By Elvia

I love you all, thank you ! ♥♥

That sucks.

2009-06-09T20:43:00.004+02:00

I'm really disappointed because I received a negative response from MacDonalds about my summer job demand. They don't do one month contract (=__=)
At the begining, I might have worked during June and July BUT because of the fucking strike... I had class and my exams on June. So only July left.
I wanted that money. So badly. I needed it, because after Japan Expo, I'll be broken (;__;)
I'll try to find something else, but seriously--I think it's already late.

“The reason that you touch me and hurt me. It is because you love me, is it not?!”

2009-06-05T17:09:00.009+02:00

Nothing to say, really... I'm trying to work, and maybe I'll start my revision this week end ( ;_;"")

I can't stop drawing Latviaaa. And porn.

I must start my RusLat doujinshi too ! ( ;~;")

I want the wind to push him into my arms.

2009-06-03T21:15:00.005+02:00

Today was a bright dayyy~~♥ *happy*

First I have my Regene wig ! Nighty sent it to me and I finally received it, I couldn't wait anymore~ The wig is so pretty, shiny and all~ but I have to brush it, like, doing some curls~

I've already done some photos, without make up, hun.

FFF. I hope the Innovator costume will be done for Japan Expo *stresss* D':

Besides, in the package I discovered a very sweet note from Nighty *squee* and my Christmas gift LOL! It's a Rolo keychain, omg (;__;) I didn't have this one and a friend told me it was hard to find it nowadays ! Really, I'm so happy (jwj) ♥
Nighty ! Be aware, I'll rape you in July, during the night at the hotel ! LOL!

Another thing, I had 2 hours of class exceptionaly today. That isn't the cool part but, I saw 2 friends of mine that I didn't see since 2 months or so. It was so refreshing to see them, instead of being alone as always ! (*u*)
Even though I'm a totally asocial person, sometimes having people's company feels good.

And finally, ELK ended my day with two AWESOME AND SEXY drawings of Older!Latvia-- in bondage. ♥♥♥ ILU GORGEOUS HUSBAND OF MINE (;u;) fff.
I should draw Bondage!Russia too ! LIKE TOTALLY.

A part of me kept telling me that this was wrong while the dominant part told me it was right.

2009-06-02T22:58:00.005+02:00

I skipped 4 hours of class today ahahah. It's Nanné's bad influence on me LOL!
No but... it wasn't interesting and useful courses, anyway ( ;u;""")
So I had only 2 hours today mwahahaha. From 5 pm to 7 pm. I love life 8DDD
I did some *stupid* photos while waiting for my train~~ (well, my sister did.)

I hate when my headphones get tangled fff ! D:<

Hello I'm supposed to look like jumping but it actually ended like I'm flying weeeeh !

I love that one. I'm so very alone.

Besides, today is Nighty's birthday fff !
Happy Birthday my luv ! JOYEUX ANNIVERSAIRE !♥ (Because French roxx 8D)
Here my gift for her~

ASHZAGSHEDZ I AM VERY TIRED. OTL I need some sleep, but RP with Elk is so much fun that I can't stop (;n;) ♥

Hurray !

2009-05-30T22:30:00.006+02:00

Today, I discovered that the author of my favorite Latvia fanfiction (GO READ IT HEREEE ♥ ) is in fact the owner of the Russia x Latvia LJ community, I named : raivisu. It may sounds nothing important to you, but for me it's like the discovery of a new drawing on Himaruya sensei's blog ! (*V*)
Umm useless entry ahahah, sorry. OTL

It’s always lonely at the top

2009-05-28T19:00:00.003+02:00

Man, today was an awful day. I was always alone at college, and it's not funny at all D:
Well, I'm not exactly all by myself because my twin is always with me ROFL. BUUUT it's not the same thing. To be with your twin is like being alone, because it's like the same person as you. She knows it, because she feels the same way as I do. So we were completely alone, our "friends" don't go to college anymore because they're fed up. We're trying to talk about Japan Expo, Anim'Est and all our joyful memories to cheer up. But still, eating alone in a big place where A LOT of students are... arg, it's still very difficult. For me. I'm very very very afraid of people, maybe someday I'll go for a cure... D':

You just can't imagine how much I hate college. I'm so depressed when I'm there *cries* I'm thankful to have a twin sister though. I don't know how I'd manage to do without her. I just can't imagine my futur without her by my side...argh !! ( ;n;)

I skipped my last course today LOL. English phonetic is big shit anyway. The problem is my sister and me walked just in front of our profesor lololol;;; aaah. I don't care anymore.

Though maybe "God" (LOL) punished us today. We were in our train to go back home when suddenly... my sister saw it was the WRONG train ! We ran out the wagon and some seconds later it was gone. OMG we were almost being taken away to another city (Metz) which is in the total opposite direction from our house ! XDD;; and then we had to run to catch the good train, which was on the point to go OTL
THAT WAS EPIC. I must say ALMOST EPIC FAIL ROFLMAO!

”Is it too much trouble to say ’boyfriend’ instead of ’boy-toy’ ?” ”Yes.”

2009-05-25T16:50:00.006+02:00

Huhu. I want to do a "Drink me ♥" serie. I mean, a Russia & Latvia one, of course.

Um... I'm not feeling well today. Some shit happened and I just want to... burst in anger, or into tears, or both. =|

Hurrr

2009-05-24T11:29:00.007+02:00

I... I love drawing porn, especially Latvia & Russia porn ( ;u;")
Is it bad ? is it weird ? OTL
Ah but, ahah, maybe it's not an excuse, but ELK is doing pressure on me to draw that stufffff. ROFL /SHOT. She drew me some sexy Latvia and Russia, omfg I'm so happy, plz marry me ! ♥

Um ummm here two NSFW drawings I did yesterday~

MMMH RAIVIS 8D

HERE THE DICK SHOWED VERSION BY ELK HUUURRR.

NAUGHTY RUSSIA FOR ELK 8D

Did I ever say that I absolutely LOVE bondage ? 8DD ♥

Oh, I'm changing my playlist, so be prepared to awesome new musics ! \o/

Hetalia thing.

2009-05-23T12:16:00.001+02:00

IMAGINE I AM LATVIA, HURR |DDD ♥

"Mutt just seems to like getting his ass kicked…"

2009-05-21T20:35:00.004+02:00

AAAAH. I watched episode 17 of Hetalia and I'm seriously fed up of all that USxUK. Well, I mean, because of them the 3 last episodes were almost the same ! WTFFFF. Nothing happened except US gaining weight, LOL...

But I'm so in love with Chin'as cute voice (;m;)
..........Okay I must admit, taking the fandom apart, UK and US were so cute when they were younger ( ;m;") ♥

Besides....OLDER!LATVIAOLDER!LATVIAOLDER!LATVIAOLDER!LATVIAOLDER!LATVIA
OLDER!LATVIAOLDER!LATVIAOLDER!LATVIAOLDER!LATVIAOLDER!LATVIA

He had an innate fear of ”The Monster Under Ivan’s Bed.”

2009-05-20T23:21:00.004+02:00

Nothing special to say, except that I'm really tired. ('-')
Oh, and my college is CLOSED since yesterday. It's been 2 months now that I didn't have any class.. ahah, oh joy... /hung herself

Mmmh anyway, I drew cute Latvia ♥♥ (well, he's ALWAYS cute isn't he ? XP )

I drew him with several expressions. They are his evolution, from the begining of his union with Russia to his deterioration. I...I want to hug him (;_;) Sorry Raivis, I realy enjoy torturing you (;3;)/
IDK if I post it on DA or not ? (°°;; )

”Should I stop breathing, I would hate to inconvenience you."

2009-05-19T17:54:00.006+02:00

Oh god.
I did it. I....I really drew USxUK ROFLMAO. I don't like the pairing so much because...the fanbase is too huge and well...idk it's too popular XD;
BUT ANYWAY I DRAW IT FOR NANNE FFF OH YOU ILY. 8D ♥

( * 3 * )

I'm proud of the eyes ( ;u;")

Besides, ELK and me fell in love with Older!Latvia. Like, he would be so...badass ♥♥♥

Seto Kaiba doesn't answer questions.

2009-05-16T21:51:00.004+02:00

I just look like a nerd but I fucking love it. FFFF new glasses I want to lick you !

OH BTW. I'm still feeling so EMO that I want to slap myself. That mood sucks cocks fff /rage.

I watched Silent Hill and omg Pyramid Head plz ♥

2009-05-15T22:54:00.005+02:00

Nothing in particular to say... except that I fuck college and its strikes. I want to leave. Going elsewhere.
...someone to go to London with me?~ O'D ♥

RusLat as always. For once I've drawn something cute. Latvia ♥ omg I love drawing him, he reminds me of...Rolo. (;__;) And look I drew a marguerite because it's the Latvian national flower emblem~

"Oh, tasty today I see."

2009-05-13T18:44:00.003+02:00

LOL OMG. I'm trying the make up for my Regene cosplay... the eyes, that is. I must train, because I never put make up except foundation and mascara... but never colors on my eyes and such... D:
Ahah and, I didn't have the guts to do the other eye ROFL. Well, I know it's not perfect, and doing a Regene-like eye is hard, guhhh.
Also, don't pay attention to my red eye °D ("hello, thank you photofiltre !")

Beside, I watched episode 16 (raw) of Hetalia and OMG CHINA'S VOICE. I like it so much (;3;)

YO.

2009-05-12T21:49:00.001+02:00

I has a new haircut B]

I like it, shorter hair is shorter ! \o/ ♥
Okay I think I'll do better photos later, with my new glasses~ because I kind of look like a nerd with them ahahah~~♥♥♥

Wolverine has a nice ass.

2009-05-11T17:51:00.007+02:00

I saw Wolverine wooo. That movie is... okay um... in a word : AHGSZAJDGKZESA ♥♥♥♥
Does that explain everything ? : D

AH AH AH.

And man, I finally drew what I had in mind till some days ago... art block is still here but a certain person keeps me drawing porn things : DDDD

SO HEREEEEE MY THREESOME OF DOOM IVANxFRANCISxRAIVIS OMG ♥♥

Today it's 8th of May wooo ! u_u

2009-05-08T21:13:00.005+02:00

Eeerrr I think I'll pay someone to do my fuckin' press work for college D: *depressed*
C'MON it's only 1500 words in English about the protest in London during the G20 summit, ahah...

WOOO! I drew again today ! \o/

Russia for ELK ♥

Latvia ♥♥♥ *faints*

We're not falling in love, We're just falling apart.

2009-05-07T19:47:00.008+02:00

AHAHAH I have absolutely nothing to do during my days... except doing my homeworks.

So I just draw ( ￣ ▽ ￣)b

Here Russia/Latvia agin. You can notice that Russia's body is nonexistent ahahah. I just...didn't manage to find how he was supposed to be. Anyway. LATVIAAAAA CB ♥

EHEHEH CB I fail at profils omg and kiss scenes are so hard to draw ! OTL

I should do my press homework instead.

2009-05-05T19:27:00.005+02:00

I'm such a crazy fangirl so I HAD TO MAKE A RUSSIA/LATVIA FST ! |DD ♥

>> DOWNLOAD <<

LMAO the cover sucks I know, but I haven't time to draw something nice yet. XD; art blocked ahahah.

Hetalia - What do the Nations think of you? by Kaos
Name
Age
Country
Likes you
Don´t want to see you
'LL kick your ass
'LL kiss you
Thinks you´re a liar
Thinks you´re a turn off
Thinks you´re good for nothing
Thinks you´re the best lover
Thinks you´re the worst lover
Love you
Hate you
'LL break his marriage for you
'll stalk you (maybe does)
Wants to invade your vital regions
'll take you to a farway island
'll dress you as a princess
Have wet dreams with you
Feels like a pedobear with you