H-Hello.
I know I've let my blog dying and believe me I don't like it either (lol as if people cared!), plus I have ton of things that happened but I'm just too lazy to write in English D:
An English student saying that...that beats everything!
Speaking of which, I've successfully passed my exams -one more year left before getting the English degree, yay! So I'm on vacation since May 18th C:
I'm planning on passing my highway code (I've suscribed to it yesterday), going to my gf's place during 10 days♥, going to Japan Expo and to GACKT's concert ffff- (well, if I get a ticket D: ). Guys, 7 years I've been waiting for him. 7 fucking years and now I'm not even sure to have a -fucking expensive- ticket before it's sold out. I didn't get a ticket for Lady GaGa's concert on next October although my sister did, so if I can't see at least Gackt...
About my (twin) sister, I'm feeling that we're not as close as we used to be before. Well, she is not as close as I want us to remain. I know we have to have our own life but still...I can't see my life without her (^^;) even though we have a lot of fight, we manage to laugh together 2 minutes after it. And yeah, I think I'm not ready to be independent unlike her. It makes me feel sad but I know I have to grow up.
The thing is, I'm afraid of growing up. Because of responsabilities, but not only. I've felt a lot of personnality changes through these years and I really don't like it. I don't like my actual self. Well, sometimes I do, for some reasons (like being a little more independent? just a little), but most of the time I feel as empty as a hole. I don't laugh that often, I'm not as 'crazy' as I used to be...and it causes me great grief. I'm becoming the person I used to despise when I was a teenager. Maybe it's normal, but still...if being an adult means being a boring and desillusioned person, well I don't ship it.
Ugh, this is getting on being an emo post, totally do not want.
On another note, I checked on the internet for a lazer printer. I would like one to print my chibis for keychains, and maybe posters, since someone asked me if I was doing commissions! Waw, this led me speechless for a few seconds. I often wondered if people would be interested about commissioning me but really, this was like a fantasy in my head. I'd never think that my work would be worth it. This made me very happy~ but I really can't do commissions with a law print quality. I could do traditional but it'd be only almost cleans lines and inked. I can't color properly on SAI, let alone traditionally! |D
Anyway, a lazer printer is expensive, I'll be waiting a little more lalala~
Wow it seems that I've written a pretty long entry XD just like before when the length of my posts was far more than 3 lines, not like the previous posts ahaha sorry. But in the end, writing distracted me for several minutes; now I'm back to my boredom~
I know I've let my blog dying and believe me I don't like it either (lol as if people cared!), plus I have ton of things that happened but I'm just too lazy to write in English D:
An English student saying that...that beats everything!
Speaking of which, I've successfully passed my exams -one more year left before getting the English degree, yay! So I'm on vacation since May 18th C:
I'm planning on passing my highway code (I've suscribed to it yesterday), going to my gf's place during 10 days♥, going to Japan Expo and to GACKT's concert ffff- (well, if I get a ticket D: ). Guys, 7 years I've been waiting for him. 7 fucking years and now I'm not even sure to have a -fucking expensive- ticket before it's sold out. I didn't get a ticket for Lady GaGa's concert on next October although my sister did, so if I can't see at least Gackt...
About my (twin) sister, I'm feeling that we're not as close as we used to be before. Well, she is not as close as I want us to remain. I know we have to have our own life but still...I can't see my life without her (^^;) even though we have a lot of fight, we manage to laugh together 2 minutes after it. And yeah, I think I'm not ready to be independent unlike her. It makes me feel sad but I know I have to grow up.
The thing is, I'm afraid of growing up. Because of responsabilities, but not only. I've felt a lot of personnality changes through these years and I really don't like it. I don't like my actual self. Well, sometimes I do, for some reasons (like being a little more independent? just a little), but most of the time I feel as empty as a hole. I don't laugh that often, I'm not as 'crazy' as I used to be...and it causes me great grief. I'm becoming the person I used to despise when I was a teenager. Maybe it's normal, but still...if being an adult means being a boring and desillusioned person, well I don't ship it.
Ugh, this is getting on being an emo post, totally do not want.
On another note, I checked on the internet for a lazer printer. I would like one to print my chibis for keychains, and maybe posters, since someone asked me if I was doing commissions! Waw, this led me speechless for a few seconds. I often wondered if people would be interested about commissioning me but really, this was like a fantasy in my head. I'd never think that my work would be worth it. This made me very happy~ but I really can't do commissions with a law print quality. I could do traditional but it'd be only almost cleans lines and inked. I can't color properly on SAI, let alone traditionally! |D
Anyway, a lazer printer is expensive, I'll be waiting a little more lalala~
Wow it seems that I've written a pretty long entry XD just like before when the length of my posts was far more than 3 lines, not like the previous posts ahaha sorry. But in the end, writing distracted me for several minutes; now I'm back to my boredom~
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