”Are we talking about Christmas or sex ?”

FINALLY I DREW SOME PORN! I missed my horny mood kufufu.
I know there are anatomy fails, like, a lot! But I'm kinda proud of my little Latvia here.♥♥

Tomorrow I'll be off for 3 days to Switzerland to see my beloved Jade; we will celebrate her 20th birthday AND our 1st year together. (^w^)

Oh, and I'm a little late but MERRY CHRISTMAS! Hope you got nice gifts and had an enjoyable time with your friends/family. :3


Also, did you notice that I've given to my blog a refresh? Pink was getting over my nerves!

I hate it when you think your dream is real & when you wake up, you're all disappointed...

Yesterday night I did a PRUSLAT dream. No need to say that I was over-excited when I woke up, but a little disappointed beacause, you know, I WOKE UP. Why cruel world, why? Please don't wake me up, don't. Ever.
I dreamt of Pruslat because I read a pruslat fanfiction before going to bed, and of course, because of the juicy parts fufufufufu. Is it really necessary to precise that it wasn't an innocent dream? |D

I'd like to tell my dream in the more acurate way possible b-but I'm afraid I might change unconsciously the details. (>_<) I'll try to write all I remember, I don't want to lose the feeling I had when I was dreaming, and then when I wope up. But I know it's already fading away. (T_T) I was walking on a deserted street, I think I was going back home after uni classes. I remember that I was wearing blue jeans and a large black sweat, my hair wasn't smoothed down, it was all fluffy like Latvia. (well in fact I was like that ) The strange thing is that I actually was Latvia in addition to being me. Not really like a double personnality but still, very strange. Anyway. I was -supposedly- heading home when I saw Prussia walking in front of me (here again, he was Prussia but also "someone else", like, a student). I don't really know why but I wanted to follow him and I wanted to be seen. I walked faster to overtake him, but I was veeery nervous. I still can see how I was reacting, and how I was feeling. Ah, it's very strange but it's a good sensation!
Then, Prussia called out my name! Well, not really my name, but something like "Oi, you! You, little one...Latvia!" MY. HEART. STOPPED. I turned back to face him, he was suddenly wearing his pirate uniform and...the strange thing is that I knew he was Prussia from the APH forum I rp. He was the girl who played Prussia, but like me, it was as if two worlds were in contact. I don't know if I was me or Latvia, nor I knew if she was her or Prussia...get it? Dreams are really odd and hard to explain. ANYWAY!
I don't really remember what we were talking about, or rather what he said to me (because I was too shy/embarrassed to speak) but he said something like "you were following me weren't you? And now you're trying to avoid me! How naughty..." AND THEN HE KISSED ME OMG. Like, French kiss. Like, even if you are sleeping/dreaming you can feel the sensation of the tongue on your lips, then the tongue dancing with yours...OH GOSH I'M HYPER WHILE WRITING THIS. WHY IS IT GETTING SO HOT IN MY BEDROOM? *takes off her scarf*
Erm. Well. Latvia was very...confused but not for long because it was so good., he didn't want the kiss to be broken (it's really weird to speak about me in the 3rd person...well, I was Latvia anyway). I was feeling a little guilty because, well...it was Prussia AND also the girl who rp him. That girl has a girlfriend, so I was always asking to myslef "why the heck did she do it to me?" I just couldn't separate Prussia from her, as I couldn't do it for myself with Latvia. ANYWAY I DON'T HAVE ANY FANTAISIES ABOUT HER OKAY? I DON'T CARE I DON'T CARE I DON'T CARE! I JUST CARE ABOUT MY LOVE! ;_;♥
What happened next, I really don't remember. I'm pretty sure we did some H stuff but really I can't assert it, it's a feeling I have. However, I remember I was in a sort of pub, drinking with Prussia while he was taking the Mickey out of me. The way my Latvian face frowned and pouted, I just can't forget ahah~.
THEN I DON'T REMEMBER ANYTHING. I'm still doubtful but I think there were Russia (don't ask me who was my Russia ;D ) at the end, asking where I was and with who. When I said I was with Prussia (and I was afraid to say it) he got mad. Mnnnh but maybe it's my imagination because I'm not 100% sure I didn't made up this after slightly waking up in order to continue my dream. :/

WELL THAT'S IT, MY AWESOME DREAM EVEN THOUGH I KNOW YOU CAN'T IMAGINE HOW WONDERFUL I FELT ABOUT IT. Period.
If only this mood had stayed this high all along my day. 'OTZ

Mmh. I'd like to do some PrusLat fanarts but I'm not sure I'll be able to do them. I mean, I'm so frustrated when my sketches don't come out well...but I miss drawing Latvia, and I miss drawing him in a pairing. I just wish I had time to draw what I want, because I have so much work to do it's rather impossible to breath. Hyperventilating because of stress is not funny. (y)
I also feel a bit guilty because I still haven't written Ciel's letter...I'm sorry dear... I promise I'll do it right after the January exams, 'kay ? ( ;_;")


Finishing this entry with PROTOPLASM with English sub. The song, Satsuki's voice, the lyrics...ALL, I LOVE ALL ABOUT THIS SONG. Rentrer en Soi, why the hell did you split up before I could see you? (TT)

Destroy them!

HETAONI HETAONI HETAONIII

GGAAAHHH Because of HetaOni I think I'm falling for Japan...a bit, but still! (;__;")

I wanted to draw a cool picture of him in a HetaOni version but I can't do anything about my shitty art lately. I want to improve but I'm feeling so empty and OH GOD 0% OF SELF-CONFIDENCE DOESN'T HELP A LOT.

I feel like I'm decreasing. And mhh... That something is changing inside of me. I don't know how to put it, but it's frightening me. orz I'm loosing something, someone; ah, idk.



I can't stop listening to/watching it!

Happy!

Today I've received Ciel's letter! (*_*) I was waiting for it since about 2 weeks; I was eager each time I was checking my letter-box but it came this morning, finally! I was astonished by the number of stamps. XD
I read it on the train and it almost made me cry. Her way of telling things is so adorable.
I really want to reply to her soon, but with all the work I have to do for exams... it's hard time folks. BUT! I want to write a 8 (or more) pages letter too ahah! ♥
I've always loved snail mail though I'm rather lazy when it comes to write a letter because I never know what to tell without being boring. XD; I'll do my best!
I just wish letters weren't that slow to reach internationally. (;A;)

Dude! you're cute. Like, 'I-have-a-secret-crush-on-you' cute.

HELLOOO.

I have my brain on /OFF mode so don't mind my shitty English pwease kthx. ( ￣ ◇￣) ノ

Yesterday I came back from my lover's place. I had a great but short vacation with her and I can't wait to put her up at home on November ♥ it'll be a great change to make her stay at my (well, my mom's) home, for once.

Anyway, I'm happy that I was able to spend some time with her. We ate at the restaurant like lovers would do, we went on shopping aaaand omg she cut her hair. She wanted it to be a surprise but since I arrived a day earlier... 8D; But she's, like, prettier and cutter than before. (Q//w//Q) I knew that short hair would fit her perfectly.
I also met with her uncle and aunt, they are funny ; we even helped them on their son's French grammar exercises wtf XD. I'm glad that Jade's sister wasn't TOO much persistant and possessive with me -but I still can't stand when she's around ARGH. On the contrary I love her parents, especially the father who's really funny and, well, he seems to like me and really understand my relationship with his daughter. (;w;)
The last day Jade and I worked on stuff about Matryoshka -our association with 2 friends of her. I still have to print my phone charms and bookmarks... oh god I'm SO LATE. I'll try to print the stuff this Saturday -even though I'm ill right now, I hope I'll get better soon. orz (though it's a nice excuse to avoid the birthday party of Saturday night ahahah YESSSS!)

I want to draw tonight but I have my Chinese lessons to revise and papers to do. *sobsobsooobbb*

I'll close this entry with cute photos I did with my phone (because I shamefully forgot my camera) with my rabu.♥

I like your hair, let's have sex.

Today = holidays ♥

Tomorrow I'm off to Lausanne to see my girlfriend. Thanks to the strikes here, I've had lot of troubles to organize my journey (=__=).

But I can't wait to see her, it's been since July we didn't see each other. (;A;)

I don't know what to write anymore, I'm very sleepy right now. orz

"Tain comment t'as changéééé O: "

Yesterday I went clubbing for the first time. Well, actually it was the second but the first was incredibly awful and nobody was into the club -so let's say it was a trial lol.

I went with my sister and Nasser, a new friend. We were supposed to eat together and then going to the César Palace (the club) but plans changed and we were joining by random (and physically awesome) guys: Kevin, Michael, Dimitri, Alexis and Adeline (2 were friends with Nasser, but the others was unknown XD). We ate pizzas at the restaurant, we drunk, (i took a Monacco because my love got me addicted to it♥) and then we went to Kevin's appartment to drink again, till 1:30 am (but I didn't get drunk, I just took 3 or 4 sips of vodka mixed with Oasis -I don't like alcohol). Then we went to the club and we danced till 6:00 am! Omg we didn't even know it was so late -or early, it depends of your point of view.

It was the Ibiza Night theme, so there were good music, trance/dance music ♥ AND OMG I THINK I JUST HAD AN ORGASM WHEN THEY PLAYED THE SWEDISH HOUSE MAFIA SONG.

Amen.

Um, I'm not in the mood to explain in details my night, but it was very good. I danced most of the time with my sister and Nasser, and then Michael rescued me from some perverted guys ; I danced with him till the end of the night (insert here the "EN TOUTE AMITIÉ" thing). Though Michael tried to get off with me even if he knew that I had a girlfriend. He. Was. Persistant. But thanks god he was nice, and I nicely told him I was in love with my girl and that's it.


YES I LOVE YOU, YOU MY BELOVED ONE. PLEASE, GET BETTER SOON, OKAY? I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO ANYMORE, BUT I LOVE YOU.

"Stressed" is "desserts" spelled backward.

Oh hai.

I had an urge to write here -maybe because I don't want to work.
Indeed, I have a tone of work, a pile of assignments, and I don't even know where to start. Since yesterday I'm doing researches for my rhétorique de la critique courses, and I still don't know if I'll do my paper about the homosexuality in the Picture of Dorian Gray film (1945). I think I have more chances to find critics, essays and notes about that topic than on How Many miles to Babylon? by Jennifer Johnston *sob*. Too bad, I really wanted to base my thesis on "HELLO ALEC AND JERRY ARE LIVING A MORE-THAN-FRIENDLY RELASHIONSHIP" -but I liked the Dorian Gray's movie at least.
I watched it yesterday night but I didn't read the book of Oscar Wilde, I DON'T HAVE TIME *sob* . I've only found the movie in its original version WITHOUT SUBTITLES. At the very beginning it was hard to understand when the characters were speaking -I mean, do they even articulate? I managed to be accustomed after 10 minutes or so, though I think Lord Henry Wotton is an incomprehensible person at heart (but I love his hedonist philosophy ♥). I didn't find Dorian Gray that appealing; on the contrary I literary fell in love with the character of Sibyl Vane, performed by Angela Lansbury. She's maybe one of the most beautiful woman of the world.
Speaking about beautiful things, I absolutely loved the background of the movie. Dorian's house struck me to the heart -GREC DECORATION MY FRIENDS. All the mansion, from the door to the carpet, all was a reference to antiquity with statues, paintings, embroidery, etc. It was such a pleasure to my eyes, all seemed so refined and I think it helped to set a quite "gay" atmosphere.

Iiih okay I've always loved this part of History, but since I'm again into the Saint Seiya fandom I squee-ed like a fangirl when I saw a decoration of Athena in Dorian's house. YES, Saint Seiya is back to my heart. I've watched the 13 OAVs of The Lost Canvas saga and man, it rocks hard. I love the character design of Shiori Teshirogi, it's so fresh and it's not effeminate to the extreme, yes! I'm currently reading the manga, since the OAVs are only a compilation of the 6 first volume of the serie. I can't wait to see the Gemini knight ♥ and Kagaho akqjahsgas -I love Hadès and his generales.
Man, look at the fangirl I am. But it's SO GOOD to have a fandom again, I feel alive for a bit, and it helps to feel better sometimes.

Indeed I felt a little depressed those past days, because my sister quit college. Hence I've been alone at school, weaking up alone, walking to the train station alone, eating alone, etc. But in other hand it's something I needed in order to have a social life. Living always with my twin isn't a good thing for me, I know it since the very beginning, but it's hard to not laugh with her like we used to. Because college is depressing, having her by my side was important. Well, that was what I thought. Now that I'm alone, I have to go towards others to make friends. And I didn't know it would be so "easy", but I made 4 good friends (Sofien, Leïla, Hédi and Amélie) in few days, and other acquaintances. I'm less afraid to go to college now, but I still hate it. Also, a guy who is sitting next to me during the Chinese class is apparently the same as my sister and me, we have a lot in common, like OMG HE LIKES CLUBBING. Okay, Nasser mon cher, thanks to you I'll maybe have a social life.

*cough* But I think it's not for today, for I have to stop writting here and go back to my studies. I have Robinson Crusoe to read -I dropped The Pilgrim's Progress, it was too boring, like, worst than Jacques le Fataliste.

House s5ep20

I've watched it today and I can't hold back my tears. I can't stop crying. It's only a fiction but I'm sad and afraid. Because a guy like him, so cheerful, a guy like him who was smiling to everybody, commited suicide. So then, how a girl like me is supposed to react?

I'm scared to be able to do some... things.

His corpse, her cries and yelling while attempting to resuscitate him -it brings back so horrible memories.

CALM. THE. FUCK. DOWN.

AHSBHZADBHJ. No I can't. I can't calm down because -

I HAVE FINALLY RECEIVED THE TWO VOLUMES OF HONEYDEW SYNDROMEEEE !!!one1!! ♥
Okay I'm looking like a fangirl right now, jumping and screaming all around BUT I'm f*cking HAPPY.
This. made. my. day.

GAH.♥

I didn't think I'll be able to have this wonderful webcomic in my hands. NNNH.

JAY AND CHARLES, HERE I COOOME! *fapfap*

If you don't know Honeydew Syndrome GO READ IT RIGHT NOW : http://www.honeysyn.net/comic.php?p=17 ♥ (first page)


SCREW HOMEWORKS I HAVE HONEYSYN ♥♥ (and bonus pages ffffffff- )

Life sucked all over again.

Herro thar.

I'm feeling so down right now ahah. Isn't a blog the best place to cry emo tears and bring the drama? OH THE DRAMA.

Well tomorrow is my last day of vacation. I don't want it to end because I'll be back to my stressful and annoying college life. I can't say the past 3 weeks were enjoyable either, it was rather a boredom. B-But I'm feeling so down, so sad and scared to return to college with people I don't know, just some acquaintances, and courses I despise.

Blah I've the impression I've lost all my English fluency (does it had ever existed? lolol)

I'm feeling like being on Sunday -I hate Sundays. I'm feeling empty, sad, down, depressed *OH THE DRAMA*. The thing is that mom announced bad news to me an hour ago -I hate family issues.

Yeah right. I was feeling unwell because it is the end of summer vacation AND now I know things, one of which I don't want to believe. Brother complex I must say.

I wanted to be comforted. I have been disappointed by the person I love the most. Why. I have been, like, ignored. It hurts so much.

Oh well. I'll fake a smile. Again.

(man I'm such an attention whore oTL )


Edit : I feel such a dumbass right now. She was here to comfort me after another bad news, she tried in her own way and I feel much better now. I love her so much.
Many thanks to Nighty too. You two are so precious to me. *hugs*

I must work harder and deeper (huurr 8D)

I'm not good at coloring, let alone coloring bodies buhuhu (;__;)
I prefer the second one so far -though I love Jay's hair on the first version (;3;)

Porn is back

It's been ages since I've drawn some porn but because of Hamletmachine's and Twisted's awesome arts I've been driven into horny mood ahah.
Jay and Noa © me and ELK (respectively)

I thought that Noa looked like Lithuania sooooo here LatxLithu~ (event though I'm not into this pairing, sex is sex~). I'm sure Russia is a peeping Tom somewhere~ 8D

Hey buddies, I'm back

I'm finally at home, since yesterday night. The originally 10 vacation days in Spain turned out to be two damn weeks and the last days were LONG. I wanted the internet back, I wanted to talk to my friends and Jade, I wanted to check my messages, aaah.

I didn't tanned a lot ahah what a shame I know, especially since it was 40°C everyday orz I already miss the sun, here it's freezing ahgsafshze.
I didn't draw a lot of keychains, not as expected asbgjshza I failed sorry orz And now I'm too tired to do some, though my tablet is just next to my hand and I want to draw something (but not keychains ;A;''')

Anyway, these holidays weren't as bad as I thought. I had fun with the hens of my grandparent's farm, I loved watching them eating and running XD and it was nice to go to the beach. Aaand I had the opportunity to see Nighty and Seb twice when I slept in Bordeaux (;w;)/

Nighty, Seb and me during the outway journey in Bordeaux~

The view from the window of the bathroom. (Galicia, Spain)

The awesome bathroom of my grandparents (**) ♥

My sister (left) and me (right). I tanned a little~

Nighty and me at Seb's appartment during the return journey.

I didn't take a lot of photos from my trip orz I think my mom shot me while I was reading on the beach. I must ask her~

See ya

I'm off to Spain tomorrow morning and DO NOT WANT. Seriously. Can't wait when I'll be returning home.

I already miss internet even though I'm on the comp right now.

I already miss ELK and my friends.

Ah, I don't want to go.

Tomorrow must be better than today.

Hello.

I know that it's been a while since I've written here, and I thought I'd be more active... sorry. I'm just lazy to write in English -though I'm lazy to write in French as well, even if I have things to say.

Yesterday I spend the night at Mayu's house with my sister, Sam, Megane and Nawael; we did a surprise party to welcome back Nawael who stayed in Japan for a year. She told us lot of things that happened to her, and some are really... disturbing. I've known that Japanese people are "special" in their way, but really, some are near frightening. Though, she experienced good things too, I was feeling like going again (since I wasn't into Japan anymore). Well, not for studies, just for vacation and tourism with friends (and my love, I wish) =) .
We spend the night eating crêpes and watching/fangirling over Kpop video clips -FFFFFFFUUU. That was hot hot hot : D ♥

But today is another story. We're all packing things because we're going to Spain on friday morning for 10 days. Mom is excited and all stressed up, it gives me headaches to see her running everywhere and YELLING.
I don't want to go. No internet for 10 days -no talking with my friends nor my love. *sob sob*
I'll spend my time on my tablet, drawing and coloring keychains. Ah, I need to revise my Chinese lessons too orz.

I'm feeling really weird. I've not talked to my love since I'm back from Mayu's home (because she's offline) and I'm still waiting for her. *sad*
While waiting, I've watched the last episodes of Durarara. Man, I hate feeling this empty you know. But I'm relieved at the same time, because I've finally found an awesome anime. It's been since Code Geass that I wasn't enthralled by animu. D: I'm in love with Celty and Shizuo. Amen.

oh fate, oh you...

I DIDN'T GET A TICKET FOR GACKT WEEEEH. 8'D

BUT MY SISTER DID WEEEEEEH. 8'D

Ahem. So yeah, bye bye Gackt, but don't worry I won't cry for you! (I'd 6 years ago though). Instead, I'm going to the concert of Versailles -Philharmonic Quintet-♥ Okay I've already seen them in 2006 but I really loved their last album JUBILEE; and I'll be able to see my dear dear Yuki *caresses his drum stick again -YES I HAVE ONE OF HIS DRUM STICK 8DDD*. I wonder if the members will do something for Jasmine...

I received the concert ticket this morning from GEKIDO TOUR and their tickets are always that gay :It was pink 4 years ago, now they've chosen purple (⌒ ∀⌒)v


I've watched the new GaGa's video clip ALEJANDRO this morning and ahshaszfdzeh ffffff- *fangasm* it's been 6 times I've watched it now. Men are definitely hot when they're dancing. AMEN.

Mozilla is lagging like hell right nao.

H-Hello.
I know I've let my blog dying and believe me I don't like it either (lol as if people cared!), plus I have ton of things that happened but I'm just too lazy to write in English D:
An English student saying that...that beats everything!

Speaking of which, I've successfully passed my exams -one more year left before getting the English degree, yay! So I'm on vacation since May 18th C:
I'm planning on passing my highway code (I've suscribed to it yesterday), going to my gf's place during 10 days♥, going to Japan Expo and to GACKT's concert ffff- (well, if I get a ticket D: ). Guys, 7 years I've been waiting for him. 7 fucking years and now I'm not even sure to have a -fucking expensive- ticket before it's sold out. I didn't get a ticket for Lady GaGa's concert on next October although my sister did, so if I can't see at least Gackt...

About my (twin) sister, I'm feeling that we're not as close as we used to be before. Well, she is not as close as I want us to remain. I know we have to have our own life but still...I can't see my life without her (^^;) even though we have a lot of fight, we manage to laugh together 2 minutes after it. And yeah, I think I'm not ready to be independent unlike her. It makes me feel sad but I know I have to grow up.
The thing is, I'm afraid of growing up. Because of responsabilities, but not only. I've felt a lot of personnality changes through these years and I really don't like it. I don't like my actual self. Well, sometimes I do, for some reasons (like being a little more independent? just a little), but most of the time I feel as empty as a hole. I don't laugh that often, I'm not as 'crazy' as I used to be...and it causes me great grief. I'm becoming the person I used to despise when I was a teenager. Maybe it's normal, but still...if being an adult means being a boring and desillusioned person, well I don't ship it.

Ugh, this is getting on being an emo post, totally do not want.

On another note, I checked on the internet for a lazer printer. I would like one to print my chibis for keychains, and maybe posters, since someone asked me if I was doing commissions! Waw, this led me speechless for a few seconds. I often wondered if people would be interested about commissioning me but really, this was like a fantasy in my head. I'd never think that my work would be worth it. This made me very happy~ but I really can't do commissions with a law print quality. I could do traditional but it'd be only almost cleans lines and inked. I can't color properly on SAI, let alone traditionally! |D
Anyway, a lazer printer is expensive, I'll be waiting a little more lalala~


Wow it seems that I've written a pretty long entry XD just like before when the length of my posts was far more than 3 lines, not like the previous posts ahaha sorry. But in the end, writing distracted me for several minutes; now I'm back to my boredom~

HOLIDAYS MOTHERFUCKERS!!

Oh yeah. Finally. HO-LI-DAYS. *cries*
All my college exams went quite well I think; I had my last English oral exams yesterday -and it was so tiring.
I can't wait to see all my grades *waiting until May 26th*

To celebrate, have a sexy trailer of the new MBLAQ single released the same day of my vacations 8D

nnng why did G.O. shaved his moustache ?! (QnQ)

I wish I could sleep without waisting time

Yesterday night's dream was weird but epic. I had to dance on BEAST's song "Shock" in front of an admissions board. I tried to reproduce the choreography b-but I failed LOL. Ahh I was enthralled though. When I woke up I had stars in my head ; the only thing I wanted was to go on youtube to watch the Shock practice video! XD; -what I did as soon as I turned the computer on lmao.
Ah, I really want to learn the choreography though. Since I don't do any sports I think it'd be a good thing to dance -I'd like to have a Wii and the Just Dance game, I tested it at a friend's place and it's so effective! ;_;

I'm always focusing on hyun seung while watching the video♥. Even with the ugliest coat on Earth he's still so cool XD

BEAST is the BEST

hyun seung ♥

camwhorelolol

Sometimes I like putting my camera on. Narcissism ahahahrr. B-But it was just to test the lighting this time 8D;;

Anyway, I did a quick and random photo yesterday and—OMG I had almost the same face as Hyung-Nim (from the Kdrama “You’re beautiful”) (°A°)♥♥

Too bad a I had the glasses though.

And my twin sister and me like to do awkward poses together.

LOLOLOL. *goes hide herself*